Its true, we may not have noticed.
These special people can pass us by if we want to hold onto our grief and pain, if we want to blame and be victims.
Its true, we may not have noticed.
These special people can pass us by if we want to hold onto our grief and pain, if we want to blame and be victims.
Yesterday I talked about overlooking friendships. I said that not so long ago I’d asked myself:
“If I can’t see the love extended towards me from those around me, how can I know it and receive it from God?”
This question opened my eyes to many things.
When we live steeped in addictions and co-dependence true friendship doesn’t always stand out. It takes a growth in integrity to begin to recognise those that give without trying to getsomething from you. And often when we’ve been used to co-dependence it can feel vulnerable and strange to begin to enter relationships based on love and humility.
I often find myself feeling exposed or insecure or stupid when I can’t ‘control’ the way others will perceive me through projections or addictions in the way that I used to.
As I let the real me speak, the child in me identifies risk.
All of the times as a child that I was made fun of, or judged, or rejected, or just not approved of when being myself taught me to play it ‘safe’ and hide myself in gradually increasing increments. I replaced these ‘self-parts’, my ‘whole-heart’, my ‘true-ness’ with parts I thought would please everyone, until one day (not so long ago) I realised that my heart was closed off and I had lost the ability to sincerely love and to be loved.
It’s hard to let love into a heart that is walled off by fake parts. And as I tear down the barricade I often find myself overwhelmed with emotion. When love reaches behind the façade it is such a contrast to the loneliness my true self had grown accustomed to, that I often melt into tears.
So I’ve learnt that sometimes friendship requires bravery. Sometimes it means taking a step that feels risky. It means taking down the walls and opening up to the possibility of love once again. It means having the courage to grieve as well as be real.
I see the same thing reflected in my relationship with God.
Have you ever realised that you overlooked a true friend in favour of an addictive relationship?
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Huge gratitude to these people who helped out on Wednesday.
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Lena, Igor & AJ |
To Lena – who has learnt how to edit video files so that we can bring you the book group on youtube every week. She edits the video for upload each week and also operates a video camera and helps with set-up and pack-up.
To Igor & Vlad – who operate a camera and handle sound during presentations. Igor is our usual video editor and Vlad is learning the ropes. Igor uploads all files to youtube.
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Joy & Cavil |
To Joy – who was the first to arrive and last to leave. I believe this made her stay at the Wondai Hall more than 10 hours!
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Cavil |
My AJ – who has individually purchased every piece of sound and video equipment we use, he maintains all of it, and understands how each item works. He has trained all of us in how to use these things and is involved in and oversees every set-up and pack-up we do. He packs the van and unloads. He backs-up every piece of data we collect. He edits all of the audio files that appear on our website.
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Diana, Jane, Joy & Laurleen |
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Vlad & Igor |
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Jane & Anto |
To Diana, Cavil, Anto & Jane– who handled hall logistics, and mucked in with technical support or whatever was needed at the minute.
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You guys are awesome |
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Some great guy who would probably rather be playing guitar! |
My special thanks to these wonderful people and many others who often show up and quietly add their hands to the task. (I think Joy calls you her ‘silent ninjas’!) Every one of them is led by their own passion in these areas and their desire to serve others.
Have you experienced a friendship that has not only nourished you but also challenged you to be a better person?