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Bank Account Donations

Morning everyone,

Just a quick request to those of you who donate to us using direct deposits via internet banking or by cash deposit into our bank accounts: Please reference your deposits with the prefix DTDON.

If you wish to add a personal message or mark afterwards that is absolutely fine but placing the letters ‘dtdon’ in front makes accounting for your gifts much easier.

Many thanks,

Jesus & Mary

Jesus & Mary: April/ May Newsletter

After the lovely response we received after our ‘Super, Duper Update’ in March, I have decided to write a regular update of our lives and any news-ey things for you here on the blog. That way – especially during this time that we aren’t producing new videos – you know how we are doing and what we are up to.

I’ll be honest; I originally planned to write a monthly update. But at the end of April I thought to myself ‘well we really don’t have much to say, I’ll write my newsletters once every two months’.

<Cough>

Then I wrote you this update after two months and it was clear I totally needed to rethink my plan.

This is a long update.

Once I got to writing I had to laugh at myself. I realised that there actually was lots to share.

So in future I’m probably going to publish a newsletter each month. Unless I trick myself again into thinking I don’t have that much to say. Then I’ll probably just be writing another massive update at the end of two months.

<Smile>

I make no promises.

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Things have remained busy here at home during April and May.

Below is a summary of what’s covered in this update:
(you can click on the titles below to jump to individual sections if you wish)

Thank You
Studio Progress
A New YouTube Channel
Jesus
Website Upgrades for Portable Devices
Hard Disk Drives
Offers to Help Out
Mary

Thank You

First off Jesus and I want to say a massive thank you to everyone who has donated to us over the past couple of months (and ever really!). Without your support none of what I outline in this update would have been possible.

Jesus and I see this time period as a window of opportunity to create a solid base from which to enable long term and effective sharing of Divine Truth. We are working on setting up and refining our current frameworks, systems and facilities used for the sharing of Truth.

In the future we plan to be engaged in actively sharing and demonstrating The Way for others more publicly but we know that in order for that to go smoothly good systems are essential. Otherwise our time can be chewed up with repetitive tasks that are required to keep basic things running.

So, your donations at this time are helping us to do many of the things I list below but also to create the groundwork for awesome new things like a searchable Divine Truth database and upgrades to the website. All of those projects still require a fair amount of time and funds to complete but we are working towards them.

This month we also had some crucial bills to pay in order to complete studio and without your donations we wouldn’t have been able to do that.

Please accept our heartfelt gratitude. Your generosity is so moving and so appreciated.

Studio Progress

The studio is nearing completion. We have had a few delays. Rob our volunteer painter was unwell for a couple of weeks and we had some hold-ups sourcing good quality recycled timber for the landscaping.

However the painting is now finished and we have some railway sleepers in the yard ready to be placed around the gardens.

Over the coming weeks Jesus, Cornelius and Igor will be working on installing the desks and lighting and Jesus and I will work on laying the data cabling in the suspended ceiling.

We are almost there!!

It is looking fantastic and I am super excited to record a bit of a tour for all of you who have been so interested and excited in the project. That won’ be for a while though as things are still a bit dusty for precious video and sound equipment to be used inside.

The studio takes shape

The studio takes shape

The beautiful floor and paint job

The beautiful floor and paint job

The guys working on wiring and desk installation today. Can you see Jesus in this picture?

The guys working on wiring and desk installation today. Can you see Jesus in this picture?

A New YouTube Channel

I’m also excited to announce that we have a new YouTube channel called ‘Divine Truth Clips’.

This channel is to provide a place for short excerpts from longer presentations to be shared. The videos will be tagged with key words for searching, and also eventually incorporated into the JSON database Jesus is developing for the website. (So excited for that future database that will allow keyword searches of ALL Divine Truth data as well!)

Having been in the audience for many of Jesus’ older recorded seminars I know that there are hidden gems on varying subjects (often off topic) within these larger discussions. So I am super excited that volunteers are now coming forward to want to edit out some of these sections and make information relating to specific topics more accessible. Sometimes hearing a small gem of truth is enough for a new comer to decide to explore more!

I believe that having a large collection of short clips from all of the Divine Truth talks will become a wonderful resource that can be used in many ways by many people.

If you would like to be involved in creating and contributing clips for the channel we have developed a specific and fairly easy procedure for volunteers to follow. This procedure allows us to download clips from volunteer’s YouTube channels and upload them semi-automatically onto the Divine Truth Clips YouTube channel.

If you wish to be involved in this project please email clips@divinetruth.com for details.

Please note that while the new YouTube account is now operational we haven’t yet loaded any clips onto it. This will begin to happen soon – so watch that space!

(What you currently find on the channel are just test uploads of old FAQ clips).

Jesus

Jesus has continued work on a number of programming projects including writing code to enable semi-automated transfer of the short clips created by volunteers onto our new Divine Truth YouTube Channel. He is working on automation of download and synchronization of Linux based operating system distributions (distros) and is beginning the automation of Linux based software repositories (repos), and software, and continuing the automation of the transcription process.

He is still working on document conversion routines for the transcribing and translating teams, and continues to update the website, and program that backend database into the website. He has been programming 10 hours per day for 4 days per week. He seriously blows my mind with everything he is able to manage and achieve!

The other 3 days of the week Jesus spends on tasks relating to completion of the studio. He has continued work on the landscaping and he and Cornelius have been experimenting and making prototypes for custom spotlights we will install in the studio.

Next month he’ll be focused on laying Cat6A and SDI 3G wiring in the suspended ceiling.

It is a busy time for him and he is still struggling to have time and space for his emotional work. However he does feel that in the future as he progresses, he won’t have the time to lay these valuable foundations for the distribution of Divine Truth that he is currently working on.

Jesus prepares a hole in our front garden to bury scraps in.

Jesus prepares a hole in our front garden to bury scraps in.

In they go!

In they go!

These scraps are spoiled goods donated to us from a local fruit and vege store.

These scraps are spoiled goods donated to us from a local fruit and vege store.

Future Events

We are still open to giving some seminars and groups in the later part of this year.

You can see running totals towards overseas Assistance Group donations on the Assistance Group page. Donations towards these events have petered out a little of late and in May we only received one donation towards an Assistance Group. But we’ll just keep logging donations as they come in and I’m sure these events will go ahead in time if enough people desire them to happen.

It has been pleasing to hear from many newcomers to Divine Truth from overseas expressing an interest in attending a seminar over the past couple of months.

There has been some limited response from people in Australian regional areas on our Eventbrite pages that register expressions of interest in hearing us speak.

At the moment Australian destinations registering the most interest are Melbourne and Sydney respectively. And we have had one offer from a person who would be willing to help with organising an event in the Bangalow area of NSW.

As usual details of any concrete plans will appear in the Events sections of this blog and on our website.

Website Upgrades for Portable Devices

Thank you to some of you who let us know that various pages on our website, including the Donate and Gallery pages, were not working for IPad, IPhones and Andriod devices. Jesus has now fixed this issue.

Hard Disc Drives

In April there was a huge response to our offer of hard disk drives as gifts. We copied all of our Divine Truth data onto four drives that we were no longer using and sent them off to people who emailed me.

While I wished that I could send a drive to everyone who expressed an interest I also wanted to let you know about the options that are always available to you for you to have a copy of all Divine Truth data on your own disk at home.

First though I wanted to make sure you know that all of our Divine Truth data is available online for free via our website and various YouTube channels. (Some people were a little confused about whether or not extra data was included via the Hard Disk Drives)

Now about having your own offline copy of data on a disk at home:

1. We do offer a disk copy service for anyone who wants an offline copy of all our materials.

Details about this service and what you need to do to have a disk copied can be found on the website here.

2. You can sync all Divine Truth material via the internet.

Details about this service can be found on the website here.

You will need to download the latest Bit Torrent Sync software from the Bit Torrent site here.

3. There are people in various areas around the world who will complete a copy of all of the current data onto a disk for you – as long as you provide them with a disk.

Details for those people willing to do disk copies outside of Australia can be found here.

You will find contacts listed for the USA, Asia, Europe & South America

Many people find this option helpful to get them started and then add new data as it appears via the Bit Torrent Sync Service. That way you get the majority of data quickly and it is only a matter of updating small amounts of data each time we add a video or document to our site.

Since those of you in Europe and the USA have lightning fast connections and huge bandwidth allowances compared to us Aussies Bit Torrent Sync does seem to be a great option for you all.

This is another environmental project here at home.

This is another environmental project here at home.

We place used cardboard into a dam-like depression created in depleted part of the property. The depression collects moisture.

We place used cardboard into a dam-like depression created in depleted part of the property. The depression collects moisture.

Later we will cover the cardboard with mulch and as it breaks down it should create fertile soil for planting natives.

Later we will cover the cardboard with mulch and as it breaks down it should create fertile soil for planting natives.

The cardboard is collected from a local business.

The cardboard is collected from a local business.

Offers to Assist with Divine Truth

After our last update a number of people contacted me wanting to volunteer time to assist us in our desires to share Divine Truth with the world.

Working on the studio and the landscaping around the new studio is nearing completion and involving new comers on the project at this time would likely take a fair amount of time explaining everything that needs to be done.

So here are the other ways that people can help out with sharing Divine Truth at this time:

1. Transcription Team

This team works on transcribing past presentations so that these talks can be used in a number of ways including creating e-books, PDF downloads and self print books, along with many other resources. This work also creates the basis for future subtitling of videos. If you would like to help out by transcribing past presentations and discussions please email Barbara on transcribe@divinetruth.com

2. Translation Team

This team works on translating the website and previously transcribed documents into various languages. You can see some of the work so far here: http://www.divinetruth.com/www/en/html/index.htm#translate.htm

If you would like to offer your services on this team and feel that you have the skills to do so please email transcribe@divinetruth.com

3. Creation of short clips on specific topics from previous Divine Truth presentations

This is a way that any of you can contribute to the new Divine Truth Clips channel.

If you would like to assist in the process of creating short clips in which Jesus, Cornelius or I have spoken about a particular topic within the context of a larger presentation there is now a YouTube channel dedicated to sharing these clips. You will need to create or already have your own YouTube account in order to make clips.

If you decide to take part in creating short clips it will be important to follow a certain procedure for describing and coding each clip. This is so that the clips can be automatically copied to the Divine Truth Clips YouTube account.

For more information on the correct procedure for creating the clips please email clips@divinetruth.com.

 4. Organising Divine Truth Events in specific locations

This usually means liaising with me closely and helping to arrange suitable venues, equipment for the event and accommodation for Jesus and I. However we usually only hold events in locations where there is already an interest in hearing us speak.

If you feel that you or a group of people in your area have a strong interest in hearing a presentation from us and you are willing to assist in the arrangements for such an event then please email office@divinetruth.com outlining your desires.

5. Technical Assistance

Jesus has found that many of the people who offer technical assistance aren’t willing to do exactly as he asks. This of course means that they are not really helping him. Jesus has tonnes of experience in the IT field (over 36 years ) and usually knows exactly what he needs to get jobs done.

If you can follow directions and document everything that you do clearly, you have specific IT, engineering and programming skills and you have an idea of how you can help, then Jesus would be glad to hear from you. Email:webmaster@divinetruth.com

These are the five main areas where people are volunteering their time to assist with the growth of Divine Truth at the moment.

If you have a project in mind that you would like to help us with and you have the skills and expertise to complete the project without assistance then please let us know.

Me

I’ve been keeping up with my usual tasks e.g. making sure Jesus is fed, watered and clothed while he continues to work like a genius multi-tasking various manual, technical and planning jobs.

I’ve also been working on streamlining systems in place for our Divine Truth Office and FAQ email accounts. With the number of emails we receive continuing to rise it has been necessary to create some ‘canned responses’ to frequent emails. This ensures that mailers receive the pertinent data quickly and that volunteer time is used effectively. I’ve also been meetings with volunteers who respond in those accounts to discuss approaching their duties in harmony with Divine Truth principles.

Along with all of that I am really fortunate that Jesus encourages me to take time for my own emotional work and for the past few months I have begun to appreciate and value that time for the gift that it really is.

To be honest, with our reduced filming and travel schedule over the past couple of years, I initially found taking concentrated time to focus on myself very challenging.

Taking a break from doing so much travel after 2013 and even ceasing our regular filming while the studio is being built automatically created more space for reflection inwards (rather than outwards). What I found within myself was a lot of fear and resistance towards some very deep and crucial issues that I’d been overlooking for a long time.

The going quickly seemed to get very tough.

I spent months fighting my process and reverting to self-attack, allowing spirit attack and searching for new distractions. I went through a period of questioning whether I had ever made any progress at all since meeting Jesus again in 2009.

Many times I questioned my capacity to feel through what was emerging for me. And I was forced to confront my lack of true desire to deal with the level of fear I have about fully embracing my soul again.

I am happy to report that I finally feel like my grip on all of that resistance has loosened. I can see that while my progress might have been slow that there has been forward movement over the years and I am finally in a place where I feel I am about to take some big steps. In a lot of ways it feels like the work is just beginning but I also feel excited and more positive for the first time in a long time.

The past 18 months have been a huge lesson in strengthening my will to love and I have had to face my anger and resistance about embracing that process. Only through facing the state I was in have I been able to let go of some of those false beliefs and get to a new state.

I have had the benefit all these years of a strong, wise partner who has reminded me of truth and in many ways encouraged me and supported me when I refused to do that for myself. I have recently begun to feel how uncaring it has been for me all these years to not take responsibility for reminding myself of truth and to cease listening to negative influences of my own accord.

All along I’ve had the choice to seek Truth and God for myself. I have the option to grow my own desire for love and building faith based on my experiences (not Jesus’) and in fact, unless I do this, I’m never going to get much further than where I already am.

I’m sharing all of this with you because I know that while we aren’t holding seminars or producing new videos many of you are beginning to have to face the emotional issues relating to your own reliance on Jesus to provide ongoing positive input in your life. I know that some of you are being confronted with how much personal will is required to take responsibility for your own emotional injuries, to break down addictions and to welcome God into your hearts.

I want to encourage each and every one of you to do that.

It took time and many choices out of harmony with love and truth to find yourself in a place of unhappiness, distant from God and feeling afraid.

So it is logical to recognise that gaining a relationship with God and becoming a happy, whole person will require from you a dedication of time. And it must require an individual’s development and strengthening of will towards love that has been previously lacking. (If it wasn’t previously lacking you wouldn’t have found yourselves so distant from God or yourself).

You are going to have to want to give time to this soul regeneration project and to make choices in harmony with love and truth every single day. And some days you won’t feel the immediate rewards, some days you have to stay true to the overall aim and have faith that you will reap rewards once you are through the pain and fear.

Giving up when the pressure mounts or the uncomfortable emotions begin to surface gets us nowhere. In fact, it is staying humble and honouring truth at precisely those times that creates the gateway to future happiness.

It is so, so easy in our modern world to find distractions from and excuses for avoiding our deepest pains. Yet as Jesus has said so many times – dealing with our biggest fears and grief is what changes the ball game most quickly. Releasing these things unlock us rapidly and allow us to sincerely long for God’s Love.

Yet sometimes we avoid these injuries for years. We try to do deal with emotions that feel more ‘comfortable’ or manageable or what our facade says that we feel (not what we truly do) and then wonder why we feel like we aren’t getting anywhere. We can start to project blame at God’s Way or doubt the effectiveness of emotional work when in fact, the cause for our feelings of stagnation is that we haven’t yet truly embraced God’s Way or proper emotional work.

One thing I know for sure: Avoiding our largest fears and deepest grief severely limits, and eventually halts, our capacity for growth and authentic happiness in a relationship with God. For myself, holding onto resistance around these issues was completely preventing any sincere longing for God from within my soul.

I share this because I know that many of you face the same roadblocks and make the same excuses as I have. As I continue to break down my facade and face where I really am at and what I really feel, I sometimes feel scared, sad or ashamed. But simultaneously it is the most genuinely liberated I have ever felt and embracing this process is causing me to soften to myself in a new way – without judgement and in deeper allowance.

There is probably loads more to say about all that but time, and the ever expanding length of this post, limits me for now. I hope that my sharing helps you to make moves forward.

It seems to me that there is so much to be grateful for – God’s Love and His provision of  new opportunities for growth and positive change every single moment. I hope I can inspire you to take time today to consider these wonderful gifts as Jesus and I extend our thankfulness again for your generosity that helps us to keep doing what we love to share these wonderful Truths.

Gifts – Divine Truth Data on Hard Disk Drive

Update: All the drives are gone now folks.

We have a few hard disk drives that hold all of the Divine Truth material created to date.

If you would like one of these drives send me an email at mary@divinetruth.com. I’ll send them off to the first people who email me.

Cheers,

Mary

A Super Duper, No Details Spared, Our-Lives-Laid-Bare Update

In sitting down to write an update for you all both Jesus and I realised that perhaps, for reasons you will read about below, our monthly ‘newsletter’ to our regular donators needed to be a little more in depth than usual. And since only a fraction of those who listen to our teachings also donate to us and I was going to be sharing in depth explanations about a lot of things people seem to speculate and wonder about but never ask us directly (which is a separate issue in itself) I decided to make this update a little more public than usual so that more people receive more information straight from the horses mouth as it were.

So here we go! What follows is an inventory of our person projects, spending and progress over the past few months. As is our custom I’ve made this direct and detailed so as to avoid confusion and convey as much accurate information as possible.

Progression of Divine Truth

Since early January we have received of a lot of attack both from people on earth and in the spirit world. These people and spirits have been attempting to stop us from presenting Divine Truth, and are attempting to influence people who have supported us financially and voluntarily in the past to no longer support us in the future. They are also attempting to stop us from being able to receive donations of any kind which included closing down the aj@divinetruth.com Paypal account. Of course, if we do not receive donations this would make our passion to deliver Divine Truth much more difficult for us to carry out. Many people are being influenced to create gossip about us in order to attempt to stop us from presenting Divine Truth. This has included stories and accusations that:

  1. Jesus and I no longer live together, and;
  2. Jesus has met another “Mary Magdalene” and begun a relationship with her, and;
  3. Jesus and I are no longer teaching Divine Truth, and;
  4. Jesus and I have a lot of funds at our disposal and are using those funds unwisely, and;
  5. Jesus and I lie about how we use our funds, and;
  6. Jesus and I do not deserve the donations we receive.

In short, we hear a lot of second hand gossip, rumours, and often, slanderous accusations about us which very few people attempt to verify and incredibly most people seem to believe. We even hear of people who live quite near to us, who could easily check the truth in what they are saying, repeating and spreading lies about how we live, what we do and our relationship. This makes it very clear that the people involved aren’t interested in discussing or discovering truth about us or themselves but rather are driven by unloving emotions and are quite willing to harm, or attempt to harm us, through their words and actions.

In fact, given how transparent and approachable Jesus and I are, no matter where a person is in the world they have avenues to contact us and simply ask us things directly. So, those people who want to engage in idle and often vicious gossip are demonstrating that they don’t really want to know the truth about us at all and instead want to avoid finding out truth and are even willing to resort to creating lies. Frankly, they demonstrate their own true motivations by their actions.

However since we love truth, and since we haven’t done much publicly lately (as you will read further on we have been super busy) I thought that this note might be a good time to dispel some of those rumours and let you know a bit of background as to what we have been doing and why.

Our Personal Life

Although our personal life is really nobody’s business but our own, we are open and transparent about it. This is why we place all of our financial records on the internet. We are also always very open about our own personal emotional and spiritual condition, and our relationship.

Since that is the case, I’d like to say that Jesus and I are still together, and in fact are becoming closer and closer each day as we work through different emotional issues. For the past 12 years Jesus has either been celibate (for 5 years), or has known that I am his Mary Magdalene. He has no intention of having any kind of sexual relationship with another woman. Anybody who truly knows him would know that. He spent a lot of time waiting for me, and, even if I did leave him for any reason, he would not have a relationship with anyone else. I am one lucky, lucky woman with a devoted, compassionate, passionate man. Any claims about him to the contrary are just malicious slander and lies.

We never have photos of the two of us! Here we are at the tube station in England in 2013!! As you can see Jesus doesn't love selfies.

We never have photos of the two of us! One of us is always behind the camera. So here we are at the tube station in England back in 2013. As you can probably tell by his expression Jesus doesn’t really go for selfies.

Jesus and I are still teaching Divine Truth. In fact, even though we haven’t run a group or held a presentation over the last 6 months it has been one of the most busy time periods in our entire time together. Jesus is working around 6 days a week for 10 hours each day on different projects to help the long term delivery of Divine Truth for the next 10 years plus. He hasn’t had much time for his own emotional work, which is something he is attempting to remedy lately.

His day usually begins at 4:30am when he wakes up. He then works on programming projects for the next 3 hours. As anyone who has emailed him knows, he has had very little time to respond to any emails. I have done that for him when I get the chance. From 7-7:30am he usually works either on the studio we are building, or on landscaping around the studio making it ready for visitors. He has personally moved over 20 tonne of rock and sand, along with over 100 cubic metres of mulch – by hand! He’s completed all of the planning and design for the interior and exterior of the studio, the electronic and computing requirements of the studio, along with doing all the investigations and ordering of materials, and answering all of the questions everyone has, as well as almost all of the wiring.

Jesus shoveling

Jesus shoveling

He does our accounts, and handles all legal requirements. He maintains the Divine Truth server, websites, video sync services, and all technology, along with programming applications to speed up the transcription of documents. He keeps all of our computer and related systems up to date, along with doing backups of all Divine Truth material produced. He usually stops work around 4pm, at which time we have our evening meal. We are both usually in bed sleeping by 8pm.

As for myself, I am working on streamlining and standardizing the office and FAQ email accounts and becoming involved with planning and preparation for interviews and FAQ sessions and questions. I handle all business phone calls and appointments, and look after the bookings of all trades persons working on the studio project. I handle planning for all future events. I liaison with volunteers, and arrange and participate in meetings with them so that I can keep a list of what Jesus needs to do to complete his tasks for the volunteers.

In addition, due to the amount of time Jesus is spending on other projects, I am doing all cooking, cleaning, washing, ironing, shopping and other general necessary daily activities. I am fortunate to still have some personal time for myself, which has meant that I am working through emotions. Jesus still assists me with that and I am incredibly grateful that he finds the time for it amongst all of his other tasks.

We both miss spending time teaching Divine Truth more actively but are very aware that the projects – physical, emotional and spiritual – that we are working on at the moment are crucial to our ability to do that effectively and efficiently in the future.

Studio Work and Landscaping

As you can see from my comments above, we have heard a lot of gossip and rumours about how we can afford to build our studio and do the needed landscaping work in order for it to be functional.

I will give you a bit of background about how the project began, and how we obtained the funds to complete it. We do not receive enough funds by normal donations to do any structure based infrastructure work (buildings). Any spare funds we receive by donations we would normally spend on technology replacements, overseas travel and accommodation, special Divine Truth projects such as the delivery of materials to third world countries, giving gifts to Divine Truth volunteers, and doing environmental recovery experiments that we can use for gathering information to help others with their environmental work.

In 2014 we were approached by a beautiful friend we know who wanted to give us enough funds to build a larger home for ourselves.

We currently live in a single bedroom home which also doubles as our office, which includes 5 computers, 8 servers and ancillary equipment, and out meeting rooms when we have volunteers and visitors. It is 80 square metres or 860 square feet in size, with a lot packed inside. So space is quite tight. At the moment one shipping container stores many things we really need in the house, kitchen utensils, beds, half of Jesus’ clothes and other things which we are constantly swapping in and out of the container.

Our friend made it clear that she had gifted the money to us personally. She did not want us to spend any of the money on a Divine Truth project. She knows us well enough to know that we usually spend everything we have on Divine Truth projects. (smile)

So we began a lot of preliminary planning to work out what we would need in a home, and drew up some plans.

Concurrent to all this we had been considering another long-standing problem we had had. This was that we were using Lena and Igor’s lounge room in a rented home for the location of our studio, and another two bedrooms of their home for the editing studios. This meant that Lena and Igor, or “Legor” as we call them, did not have the use of their own home, since almost all of it was taken up with our equipment. So when drawing up our “new home” plans we attempted to build in space for a studio in order to solve these problems.

The 'studio' in Legor's living room

The ‘studio’ in Legor’s living room

However, it soon became apparent that, besides our friend offering the funds only for our personal use, that;

  1. We had an increasing problem with the location of the studio and editing rooms at Legor’s home. Varying weather and temperatures precluded recording and editing at certain times of year, there were very often sound and noise problems, all along with the fact that it was always only meant to be a temporary arrangement, and
  1. Having a dedicated studio was becoming increasingly important for many reasons. For example we could see that with a studio our time and energy would be saved from setting up and dismantling the equipment. This would mean we could focus more time on preparation and delivery of Divine Truth material to benefit the world. We could remove the studio and editing facilities from a rented home. But we needed to create a recording and editing environment that could be used all year round and that was stable in terms of noise and sound, and
  1. We would need to build a shed which would store and protect a lot of the sensitive building materials and equipment before either the house or the studio projects could begin, and
  1. We did not have enough funds to complete a home and adequate studio together, and
  1. The studio alone would probably be a similar effort and cost to building a complete home, and
  1. The house would have to be built after the studio due to the location of the studio and house on our land if we separated the two structures.

Due to these problems, we went back to the friend who offered us the funds and discussed these issues with her. We stated that we could not build our house at this time, due to the issues with requiring a studio. We offered to return her funds to her if she could not agree to our using this money that she had gifted to us personally to build the studio and get it operational for recording.

She agreed to allow us to loan the funds to the Divine Truth business in order to build the studio.

Editing equipment and filming set-up in Lena & Igor's home

Editing equipment and filming set-up in Lena & Igor’s home

In order to complete the preliminary requirements of a storage shed, we also borrowed $77,500 additional funds from another friend. We budgeted that we could afford repayments on this loan from our usual donations and the shed would provide a place where we could store all of the materials we needed for the other structures out of the weather.

The shed was our first building project, and all people who worked on the shed were paid wages. No volunteer effort was involved. We still owe $60,000 on the loan, which we are now attempting to pay off (but this of course depends upon the size of our normal donations).

So, all of the work on our property that we have completed over the past twelve months has been enabled by the personal gift of one single person, the loan we acquired from another, and our desire to share Divine Truth with the world rather than use funds for our personal welfare.

Any spare funds from Divine Truth donations we had received from July to December have been going towards assisting paying some wages for workers and contractors working on building the studio. Of course, wages alone far exceed the donations we received during the period, and so the main source of funds to pay for wages and materials have come from the gift we personally received from our generous friend.

We have now run out of money to pay wages and so for the past three months, we have had 4 other people volunteering their time on the studio. We were paying them until December, but we did not have enough money after that to purchase the final materials for the project and continue to pay wages. Cornelius (David Walsh) has been the project leader and builder, and he has been volunteering his time since November (nearly 6 months). Vlad Klobucar, although no longer working here, volunteered one month of his time this year after we could no longer pay him. Igor (Shakhanov) continues to volunteer his time, both on video editing and studio work plastering and construction, and he has been solidly working on the studio for the past 3 months as a volunteer. Robert Griffiths has volunteered to complete all of our painting, which will take approximately 4 weeks of his time.

The workers at morning tea break

The workers at morning tea break

Donations

Normal donations generally just cover Divine Truth operations and our own personal expenses. We currently do not receive enough general donations to regularly give money to our volunteers, or to do major infrastructure work related to the delivery of Divine Truth such as the provisioning of servers and other technical services, or to build.

At the moment, expansion of our services is dependent upon one-off donations or gifts. In the past these have come from a maximum of 5 different sources (families or individuals) and have been large enough to cover these more costly services and infrastructure. If it wasn’t for the significant donations mentioned we would not be able to complete the studio and Jesus or I would need to obtain work elsewhere in order to do so, and to do other technical infrastructure for the delivery of Divine Truth worldwide.

At the moment Lena and Igor aren’t receiving enough donations to live on, and they have been looking for work locally. Once the studio is complete, if they are still not receiving many donations they will have to continue working elsewhere. Obviously, this will significantly affect our ability to continue the process of video editing to the degree we have in the past.

Jesus has spent a lot of time over the past months streamlining Divine Truth operations. We have cancelled one of our Divine Truth servers in order to save some funds. Another friend, Eugene from the USA, has setup a backup server for us, and this has taken over the operations of the second server that we cancelled.

We had many problems with a previous server provider. They totally deleted our entire server for no reason whatsoever, which completely stopped the website, our emails, and other operations. They then refused to communicate with Jesus about the problem for two weeks, and then made it very difficult for Jesus after that to reinstate the services. As a result, Jesus had to find another company with better support (iWeb in Canada), and then migrate all of the servers contents which he had backed up to the new location.

This was happening at the same time that he was making a major modification to the website, which is the first stage of our plans to build a database into the website, which will allow for a search engine. It was very busy and he was juggling a lot of things at once. At times like those I see how beneficial it is that he is always so thorough with procedures and back-ups. Without that it would have been a problem that took up far more time than the already enormous amount that it did.

As a result of these problems, Jesus developed a system so that we no longer need to rely upon our content server for email and website operations. Email and website are now with larger scaled enterprises, which means that we have less maintenance and these services are much faster than before, but the recurring costs for these services are higher. It also means that the content server now only serves content for our synchronization services, which allow you to download all of our material and websites onto your own computers for free.

During this period, Paypal also shut down our main receiving account for donations, and since we have had no other mechanism setup to receive overseas donations, from January we were without a large percentage of our donations. This meant that Jesus had to develop new methods of receiving donations. Sorting out these donation problems has taken a significant amount of Jesus’ time, since many donation methods either were not legal in Australia, did not operate in Australia, or the approval processes were under so much spirit influence that we struggled to receive replies from certain service providers – let alone approvals!

However we have now found 6 methods of donation that are the only ones possible for us to use. Four of these have already been placed on our website in the donate section. Jesus is currently working on the other two.

We have seen loads of wildlife around lately. This beautiful carpet python made its way along the front of the house and onto the break table outside our kitchen while all of us were chatting and working one day.

We have seen loads of wildlife around lately. This beautiful carpet python made its way along the front of the house and onto the break table outside our kitchen while all of us were chatting and working one day.

New Methods for Donation

So we wanted to let you know that we now have a number of new options available for people wishing to make donations to us. Jesus redesigned the donations page on the website and it now has very informative drop down menus that let you select from various donation methods and indicate what you would like your donation to be used for.

The page also provides information about each of the donation methods including minimum and maximum transfer amounts, fees charged etc.

We know that many people liked the convenience of using PayPal and we have left my PayPal account listed (mary@divinetruth.com) as an option for people who would like to continue to use this method.

We now transfer any donations made to this account very regularly so as to avoid any future risk of money being held there by PayPal should they choose to freeze that account as well.

For those concerned about the donations that they made to the Divine Truth PayPal account aj@divinetruth.com after the account was frozen by Payal during the period between 2nd January 2015 and 27th February 2015: PayPal has informed us that those funds are frozen for a 6 month period after which we will be able to withdraw them. So we will be able to get those funds, which are all related to donations for assistance groups in North America or Europe, sometime after July 27th 2015.

It was always Jesus’ usual practice to transfer funds from that account very regularly in the past however since we had started to receive donations towards covering the cost of International Assistance Groups this meant that some extra accounting (international money conversions) and specific transfers to separate accounts were required each time we made a transfer. Because of that it became much more time efficient to transfer out and do all of the extra accounting for the groups once a month. That is why donations from a four week period were frozen rather than a single day or couple of days.

Seminars & Groups

At the moment we don’t have any current plans for Divine Truth seminars however we are always eager to talk about Divine Truth with people who are interested and open hearted about God, love and spiritual growth.

We haven’t heard from many people recently who are expressing a sincere desire to attend a group or seminar which is why (apart from the fact that we are very busy with building the studio) we haven’t made any plans for one.

For a long time we have had expressions of interest open via Eventbrite pages to hold seminars in various places in Australia and overseas. I recently cleared out all of the old registrations so that we can get a better idea of the current interest levels in hearing us speak in regional locations. I’ll be monitoring these pages more closely over the coming couple of months. So if you feel you would sincerely like to hear us speak in your area you can visit the Divine Truth page on Eventbrite and register.

Of course, as usual, our ability to be able to visit any location depends upon our available funds so we can’t guarantee to visit your area but we would definitely like to know where people are who would like to hear us speak, especially if you are very enthusiastic. That way we can keep a possible event in mind when we receive enough donations to consider it.

If you are interested in helping to host or organise an event in your area you can get in touch with me via office@divinetruth.com.

We are still receiving donations towards the possibility of holding Assistance Groups in North America and Europe. You can find further details about these groups along with regularly updated running totals of donations received so far and the total amount needed to fund our expenses to hold these groups on this blog on the International Assistance Group page.

So that is a big update from us that hopefully helps those interested to understand how we manage things, what we have been up to and how we have been able to undertake our new big project building the studio. I’ve heard from a lot of people that you are enjoying seeing the progress photos of the building and so we’ll continue to add them as we go.

Thank you again to all of you who donate to us. I feel immensely blessed to be able to do what we do and I know that each of you make that possible.

Hope to see you at a talk or group later in the year!

The guys put in the hanging ceiling in the studio

The guys put in the hanging ceiling in the studio

Sheep

Life has kept me too occupied elsewhere to write much lately.

Eloisa on the other hand wrote this beautiful post on ‘Sheep’.

I feel so proud of my friend – her growth, her humility and her willingness to share.
Can’t wait to see what she and Pete get up to next!

Eloisa's avatarKENTUCKY LEARNING CENTRE

2006 front drive with sheep. Photo taken by Michael Taylor, local Kentucky Artist 2006 front drive with sheep. Photo taken by Michael Taylor, local Kentucky Artist

Sheep are animals that come with all sorts of connotations, assumptions and stereotypes. They are used the world over for a huge amount of products for peoples comfort and consumption. They naturally produce amazing fibre with incredible qualities. I often feel sad at how disposable animals are to people. We do not often truly appreciate the gifts we are given.

I have often heard the phrase ‘sheep are dumb’. I cannot agree and having lived on a sheep property for some years now I can say with certainty that sheep are not dumb. I can also say for certain that sheep reflect the people who ‘own’ them, use them, or who look after them – perfectly – may I be so bold as to say they resemble society at large in many ways.

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Donations to Mary & Jesus – Update

Quick Update: Please bear with us while we are investigating various new ways for people to donate. Jesus now altered our donations page on the website. We are trialing and have applications pending with a number of money transfer services.

Thank-you very much to everyone who contacted us with suggestions and found other ways to donate to us after our PayPal account was frozen. We believe we have found a number of suitable options but some require us to set up new accounts and go through an application process which involves updates and changes to our website and provision of paperwork, new bank accounts and various other things. After all this our applications may or may not be approved. So we’ll just keep you informed. Hopefully things will be running smoothly soon.

Thanks to those who have already made donations to us via the new available options. Huge gratitude to you all.

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There’s been lots of hard work going on around here these days.

The studio build is in full swing and for the past two weeks the guys have also been working on the entryway, plumbing, gardens and landscaping around the new structure.

Things are looking awesome!

Meanwhile, we have an important message regarding your donations:

Firstly, we are so grateful to all of you who have donated to us in the past and who regularly donate to us now. We feel that each of you are a part of helping us to share Divine Truth with the world.

At the moment (as at 12/02/2015) PayPal has arbitrarily frozen and closed our aj@divinetruth.com account which we use to receive donations.

So, some important notices:

1. Please cease all donations to our regular PayPal account aj@divinetruth.com for now.

We will attempt to withdraw or refund the donations made to us in the past two weeks, but for now please don’t make any further donations to the aj@divinetruth.com account. If you have an automated monthly donation to us set-up in your personal PayPal account please cancel this now.

2. While we try to rectify our aj@divinetruth.com account with PayPal or find an alternative system through which to receive your donations, if you wish to donate you can do so to my (Mary’s) account mary@divinetruth.com.

Unfortunately, as we receive the bulk of our donations from overseas via our PayPal account, if we are not able to find an alternative method for donations and/or my PayPal account is also closed, we will be unable to meet some of our ongoing expenses such as maintenance of our bit-torrent synchronization service, our divinetruth.com email addresses and a number of other internet services that are hosted internationally, including our website.

I’ll update this post as more information becomes available.

With our love,

Mary & Jesus

The Workers (LtoR) Brendan, Vlado, Cornelius, Jesus

The Workers at Day’s End
(LtoR) Brendan, Vlado, Cornelius, Jesus

Jesus Quotes: Humility & God’s Love

“Our Father provides the substance, or mechanism for us to know him, which is Divine Love, but for us to receive that Love we must truly and sincerely have a burning desire to know Him and love Him.

If we truly have this desire, then as a result, we will truly have a desire to take responsibility for and feel and experience all of our personal emotions, desires, aspirations, passions even if we feel bad about them.”

Jesus

Let Yourself Fall from the Plane

Imagine yourself high in the air, a passenger in a small plane. Mid-flight you are calmly sitting in your seat, eating free peanuts and enjoying the scenery from your window seat.

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Suddenly, one of the other passengers leaps up, and throws open the door of the plane. Shock fills the cabin.

Everyone else begins to exchange looks, the question written on their faces “What’s going on?”

Someone calls out “Hey, what are you doing?” but the sound of roaring air is all that anyone can hear.

The mystery passenger starts moving through the plane. Sickeningly you realise he is coming towards you.

“Why?!” you think as cold panic begins to creep up your spine. Before you can resist he has undone your seat belt and he grabs you by the shoulders.

Pushing and pulling he drags you towards the open door, air buffets your body and you understand that he means to shove you out into the empty space below.

Without a parachute and thousands of feet up in the air this fall would surely mean death. Wide-eyed, sweat springs from every pore. Your heart is pounding and your voice seems to have cruelly escaped you.

In silent terror you begin to struggle. You desperately grab at anything solid to try to prevent this fate. The fibres of your being are geared to resist, your body is tense.

Clinging to the door frame, your stomach becomes a sudden block of frozen ice as you glimpse the green and brown paddocks far, far below.

And then suddenly, it’s over.

Your hands have loosened from the door frame, the force of the stranger has won and you are free falling, hurtling towards solid earth below.

There is nothing left to do. Your will is surrendered to the fall.

Now, there is only your fear.

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My soulmate shared this analogy with me in order to help me better understand the emotional difference between feeling afraid and actually releasing fear.

I believe he was attempting to help me know that:

In order to release fear we must surrender to it.

On the free fall from the plane you don’t talk about your fear, you don’t reason with it.

You don’t intellectually analyze its root cause.

You don’t phone a therapist or a friend.

You don’t have a group therapy session to help you cope.

You don’t seek commiseration, compare notes or consult a text.

You are IN the experience of fear. It dominates your reality and you have no thought or space for anything else.

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While any part of us struggles against fear we cannot let go of it. While we still act to avoid, to mitigate our terror or bargain that we can handle ‘only this portion’ and ‘not that bit of it’ we are not experiencing the emotions that will heal us and change us into beings free from fear.

As you struggled to stay in the plane, no doubt you would have described yourself as terrified. However much of your will was also still involved in resisting[i].

On the free fall to the ground, there is surrender to fear because you know that there is absolutely nothing you can do to prevent your circumstance.

Releasing fear also feels like this.

We do not argue with it or rationalise it or do anything at all to try to prevent it. The fear is there and we allow it to overwhelm our senses and experience without resistance or intellectual analysis.

The use of this metaphor is to help us recognise that even in times when we would describe ourselves as feeling afraid most of us are still resisting and attempting to control our terrors and fears. This state does not allow for the release of emotion or changes in our souls.

The story is there to illustrate the difference between fighting at the door and the free fall. In terms of the experience of emotion the two circumstances represent very different states.

But this is where the analogy must end. If I carried it to its completion I would be implying that surrender to fear leads you to physical death.

Actually quite the opposite is true.

Surrender to fear doesn’t lead to you ending up a splattered, dead blob on the ground.

Allowing surrender – without impediment – to the experience of our fears actually prolongs our life and often opens up creative and joyful parts of us that have long been dormant.

It is the denial and suppression of fear that results in certain death.

Surrender to fear actually averts danger.

Allowing our emotions, particularly our fear, means that we become more sensitive to the emotions and motivations of those around us as well. We have clearer, more truthful, perceptions of others and this means that we can make more informed choices and actually act sooner to ensure our safety.

When we release fear we avoid illness, we are more creative and for the first time make joy a real and lasting possibility in our lives.

The release of fear allows us to live in harmony with love and love is the way that we gain life.

If there is any death associated with the surrender to fear is it merely the death of our willingness to honour fear above all else. This is a death to celebrate not mourn.

The major block to the release of fear is that most of us believe that the uncontrolled experience of fear will lead to something worse than death. We believe that there is no point to feeling fear and instead protect and nurse it at all costs. And this is why change does not happen. When we live in these false beliefs, rather than challenging them, we shut down full surrender to fear.

We might experience fear in brief moments but there is no ‘falling from the plane’.

Most people who have heard Divine Truth are at this time in a stagnant place. This is because they are living in their fears or still living in addictions that mask their deepest fears. There is still much ‘fighting at the door’ instead of surrendering to the emotions that are already present within.

[i] It should be noted that I’m not suggesting you shouldn’t resist if someone is literally attempting to throw you from a plane, only to be aware that fear is not passing through us in this place.

Living In Fear & the Freedom to Choose Differently

The sad truth is that the entire world’s population lives in fear in some or all aspects of their lives.

Some of us acknowledge some of our fears some of the time. But seeing our fear doesn’t mean that we deal with it healthily. In fact, most of us feel justified in our fears and demand, be it covertly or overtly, that our environment and the people in our lives make allowances for our fear driven limitations.

Then there are those of us who live in complete denial of large amounts of fear about any number of things at any given time. Denial is a perceived sanctuary and many people reinforce the barricades of the castle and pull up the drawbridge over which truth may have passed. Routines and addictions mask any sensation of fear, numbness becomes the norm, and even though the supposed ‘sanctuary’ can feel cold and damp at times, the real issue of fear is never mentioned and life is branded as normal.

We deny or diminish what scares us because in our souls we are actively resisting and suppressing the sensation of fear. This is how we choose to use our will.

And to aid us in the quest for avoidance we choose and create addictions, and attract relationships to help us navigate our days and unless we are sensitive or aware we rarely notice that the way we are, the way we do, the way we be is less about our real self and more about the escape from fear.

This willingness to live in fear is an affliction that inhibits growth on a global scale. It removes us from our true selves, it creates illness and suffering, it limits joy and discovery. And yet, I notice that most of us, when faced with this simple truth, wish to deny responsibility for our choice in this matter. We might acknowledge the affliction but want no part of the cure.

We resist the truth that living in fear and its multitude of negative consequences has come about through the exercise of our own free will.

What Does It Mean “Living in Fear”?

Living in fear or living by fear is very different to feeling our fears.

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Living in fear means that we allow the fear within us to guide and dictate our actions, our interests, our relationships, our work, our pleasure, the clothes we wear, the food we eat, the programme we watch on TV.

Every action, inaction, decision and indecision is made with the direct purpose of preventing the experience of fear. In other words, we are constantly responding to fear rather than simply allowing ourselves to experience it as a feeling. Fear becomes our evil task master – literally.

It is very difficult to know and discover our true selves when we live in fear since in this state our desires are limited to things that do not trigger fear. What we commonly associate with the sensation of ‘happiness’ is actually a lot more to do with a sense of relief at avoiding fear and having addictions met than any pure experience.

The truth is that as we suppress fear we simultaneously strangle desire and most of us, most of the time, prize the avoidance of fear above the exploration of our wildest dreams and deepest passions. We rarely pause to consider what we would be interested in or inspired by if fear was not a daily part of life.

And while living in fear can come to feel routine and normal it actually requires a great deal of vigilance, effort and control. Whether we realise it or not, when we live in fear all our systems are alert and geared towards its prevention. We walk through life sapped of our vitality and never experience our full potentials for energy and creativity.

Living in fear ages us and limits us. But even more than that, because we honour its prevention above anything else, fear becomes our God, our ruler, the dictator who drives our decisions and assessments. In this state, we are apt to abandon morality and ethics and even rational thought if it means that we can allay fear. In other words, unless we are willing to be humble to the feeling of fear we will become horrible, unloving people when fear is triggered.

Living in fear damages not only ourselves but the world and the people around us. It is the reason we stand idly by when bad things happen. It means we bow to the threats of people who are clearly unloving, thus lowering our own condition and the potentials for love in the immediate environment.

The nursing and retaining of fear is one of the major causes of all evil and unloving behaviour in the world.

Living in fear keeps us silent and inactive when love would compel us to speak and to act.

Living in fear means we begin to prefer error to truth.

While we justify not feeling fear we are automatically going to be unloving and contribute to the evil in the world in our daily activities and through our interactions with others.

There is always a choice between humility to fear and the resistance to and suppression of it. And each time we choose suppression and resistance we employ means, methods and emotions that are out of harmony with love to do it. We purposefully choose to use our will to NOT love, to NOT be ethical, to NOT be truthful, to NOT be moral, and each time we do this we are seeding evil on this planet.

Unfortunately we do this everyday.

And when we commiserate with fear and make allowances for the fear in others we only continue to foster conditions that lead to more evil and suffering.

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Signs We Are Living In Fear

  • We structure our lives to avoid situations that challenge us physically, emotionally or spiritually
  • We avoid situations and people that challenge our belief systems
  • We feel disconnected from our personality
  • We feel tired often
  • We get angry when challenged or things change unexpectedly
  • We are controlling of people or our environment
  • We lament our ‘inability’ to do things, to create, or to feel our feelings
  • We sense fear and get angry or we sense fear and go rigid or freeze
  • We suppress our desires. We might say things like “I don’t know what my passions are”, “I’m not sure what I truly desire or want from life”.
  • We discuss our fears frequently
  • We expect others to make allowances for our fears
  • We justify unloving behaviour due to our ‘special circumstances’ when we become afraid
  • We have difficulty making decisions. We procrastinate. We deny the need for action in our lives, we resist change.
  • We make jokes about our fears or the fears of others. We make fun of people who display fear.
  • We obsess about how others view us or how people feel about us.
  • We judge people or situations often
  • We stay busy – we resist spending time with ourselves doing nothing
  • We can’t be ourselves in front of groups of people – instead we resort to façade or we freeze up
  • We use as many addictive behaviours as possible
  • We live in denial and resort to wishful thinking about our progress and personal development.
  • We seen reassurance often
  • We distract ourselves from our true fears by inventing ‘fears’ we feel we can manage (emotions of self-deception)

Note: There are many more signs that could be added to this list. These are just some examples.

Denial

Most of us are in denial of just how many things frighten and terrify us.

I used to exist largely oblivious of what frightened me. I just didn’t think about it, instead I acted to avoid it and I had addictions that helped me do that.

Coming out of denial can happen as we attract events that make it impossible to deny fear any longer, like say meeting your soulmate who is Jesus (smile).

Or we can take a more pro-active approach by examining our lives truthfully.

We can for example look for three key flags that point to our living in fear:

1. Avoidance

This includes physical avoidance of situations, people and events. It also refers to (perhaps) less obvious avoidances which include every attempt we make to minimise, justify and shift the blame in relation to our fear.

2. Attempts to control & manipulate

This includes control and manipulation of our environment, other people, our children, animals, and spirits. Any time at all that you have the desire to control or influence the will of another away from what they truly desire you are acting in fear rather than feeling it.

3. Anger

This includes any sense of frustration, annoyance or irritability all the way up to outright rage, verbal and physical violence.

Examine the situations, habits, events and relationships which you either avoid, attempt to control or that trigger your anger. In every case you will find that you are living in a fear.

 

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Awareness – It’s Not Enough

We can live in fear and avoid all awareness of our feelings by meeting addictions and controlling our experience and environment. But even after gaining an awareness of our fears, we can continue to live in them if we carry on doing as they command.

We can be aware that we are afraid of certain things but if our physical and emotional choices are still motivated by the desire to prevent the actual confrontation of fear no soul change has occurred. We will continue to live in fear unless we begin to make choices to challenge the messages fear gives us.

I notice many people who say that they have decided to ‘feel their emotions’ are still basing their life choices on fear – which demonstrates that they are not yet challenging their fears. The scope of their lives, limited by fear’s dictate, does not expand and this is proof of living in fear.

Another way I notice many of us not shifting into releasing fear is that we begin to have a sensation of fear or anxiety, but then not let it overwhelm us completely.

Many people live in a constant state they call feeling afraid but are actually just living in fear.

In reality they have slight sense of the feeling, allow it for a little while, feel it’s ‘all too much’ or ‘that’s enough now’ and then do one of two things:

1. Act to suppress it by controlling external circumstances or people
e.g. changing the subject, distracting oneself with a chore or the internet, leaving a situation

2. Shut Down the emotional sensations of fear internally in an attempt to manage or control its expression and prevent overwhelm
e.g. becoming harsh and judgemental of the experience of fear, panicking, intellectually attempting to analyse what the fear is about

While we try to keep the feeling at bay like this we aren’t truly experiencing it and therefore fear won’t dissipate.

While it’s important to recognise the problem of fear and even write a fear list, don’t kid yourself that self-awareness means soul changes. Becoming more aware of our fears and deciding to ‘feel our emotions’ doesn’t mean that we have stopped living in fear.

Really Releasing Fear

First things first, these things are essential:
1. Stop kidding yourself that you are dealing with fears if your life and relationships remain the same
2. Notice how often and in what ways your actions, decisions and opinions are guided by fear

Then in order to change, start to do the opposite of what fear commands, seek ways to challenge fear and, surrender to the experience of the fear that comes as a result.

In order for fear to dissipate it must be experienced emotionally. There are no shortcuts.

Here are some words from my soul mate on this matter:

“I have had to process through a lot of fear myself. My fears were intense, and many times I thought that the effect of it would kill me. But I always felt relief after my experiences. I learnt that we need to do a number of things if we want to get through fear:

1. Always allow the experience of it.

2. Do not go ‘out of body’, do not go away from the experience, do not try to run away. Going ‘out of body’ only allows spirits to take over the body, and running away only increases the fear.

3. Deep breathe all of the time during the experience. Never stop breathing diaphragmatically. This assists you to stay in your body.

4. Have faith in God, and pray for God’s assistance to not only stay in your body, but also to help you go through the experience. Always pray from your heart.

I found that when I did these things, I always got through the fear, even though the pain was very intense, and lasted up to 4 hours at a time, and sometimes longer. Also, once I was through the experience, I allowed myself to sleep, and I looked after myself. Because I allowed the experience, the next experience was always shorter. If your next experience is not shorter, then you are doing one of the above things incorrectly.”runningaway

Understanding the Power of Choice

Fear when left unchallenged pervades our life.

By living in fear we are agreeing to the lie that we really do have things to be afraid of and that love is not the most powerful force in the Universe.

Sadly, the more we tell ourselves these falsehoods and live our lives according to them, the more fear grows.

By avoiding dealing with fear we are avoiding the potentials that love and truth can bring to our lives and to our planet.

Conversely, as soon as we stop living in fear, it will begin to loosen its hold on our lives. We begin to feel more freedom and joy. We make room for Truth.

As we begin to experience fear this liberates our true self and opens up our heart to desire and possibilities previously subdued.

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To overcome fear I believe it is necessary for each of us to recognise the individual power for change that God has granted us through the gift of free will. We can harness that gift, and use our will to love.

In fact, it is only through the engagement of our will in opposition to the fear that we currently allow to govern our planet and our lives, that deep, true and lasting fulfilment becomes possible. And through this same use of will we cease supporting the fear in others, which actually assists them towards the possibility of personal fulfilment as well.

Fear fights for itself, it justifies inaction, and it makes us experts at excusing our lack of love. Unless we challenge fear and the hold we’ve given it over our lives, we have no hope of change.

Even the smallest choices made in fear send ripple effects that impact not only ourselves but our environment, our children and those people around us and carry on for longer and in more ways than we can currently conceive of. And each time we make these fear-based choices we reinforce fears commands, we live in the lie and we create more inertia to challenge and confront when we do finally decide to choose love.

We are exercising our will to make choices in relation to fear minute by minute, day by day. The cessation of life lived in fear does not depend on any external circumstance, event or person. It is in our hands alone and depends upon only one thing – the personal choice to cease listening to fear and instead to use our will in the direction of love, truth and ethics. Without making courageous choices that grow integrity to principles such as these, feeling emotions is not only useless but the emotions felt are not those which will heal us.

Yet when we are willing to be steadfast and humble as we challenge fear, emotions will begin to flow from us. Change will happen.

I encourage you to examine your choices- these precious expressions of will. They can be your catalyst for change and growth or simply a manifestation of excuses made to live in fear.