Jesus Quotes: Faith, Fear & Courage

“If you just rely on yourself, having courage is very hard – how much courage you have is completely dependent on your own limitations.

Whereas God is an unlimited God, with unlimited Goodness. If I trust and have faith in God, now my courage will be dependent on God’s feelings, not my own. To me, that means I can do anything, no matter how afraid I am.

I don’t consider myself to have much personal courage. I simply have faith in God and God’s Goodness.”

Jesus – March 2016

Jesus & Mary : February & March

It’s been a big couple of months for this couple.

Our First Assistance Group

As many of you likely know we held both sessions of the first group in our Education in Love assistance group series.

In total 118 people attended “Using My Will to Love” and we received great feedback from many of those people about the format and content of the group.

Jesus single-handedly presented these two groups. It was a mammoth effort on his part.

He always gives a lot in terms of wisdom, love and energy in every presentation. And while he displays far more stamina than I (and many others) have, in the end presenting for 64 hours in the space of 3 weeks was a lot of giving out. So I want to acknowledge him for the incredible gift of his time and love.

The Format & Venue

Each of the assistance groups in this series has two rest days built-in to the programme. The other days are made up of 4 or 5 presentations, 30-60 minutes in length, each focussing on specific topics relating to the overall theme. Attendees said that this format is easy to manage and because the information in each session is succinct many people feel that they have gained more clarity on key issues. The groups provided quite practical suggestions and information for people to use in day-to-day life and so we are hopeful that many people will take the opportunity to grow God’s Way as a result of attending or viewing what was created.

Our New Venue

Our New Venue


The new venue has been excellent. The seminar room is very comfortable and easily accommodated all attendees plus our considerable amount of recording equipment. Fab and Kate provided some musical entertainment on rest and reflection days in the programme and many attendees found that having the beach only 5 minutes away has also been a lovely addition.

Kate Sings

Kate Sings

Our Thanks

We also had very dedicated helpers who performed some essential jobs throughout the groups.

We send our thank you to the following people:

Thanks to Lena & Igor for the work that they do in preparation, set-up, filming, pack-up and editing. If you want to catch up on more from Lena and Igor they have a new blog: I’ve encouraged them to share on the blog all of their enthusiasm and inspiration about Divine Truth that I hear from them in private discussions. Hopefully they will sometime soon.

Thanks to Cornelius for being a dedicated audience videographer with an eye for detail and finding the best shots.

Thanks to Eloisa Lytton-Hitchins & Joy Harris for being in charge of name tags and guest lists in my absence.

Thanks to Bruce & Kelly Carrigan for helping out with transporting of equipment and gear.

Also special thanks go to those people who donated towards the expenses of the groups even though they personally could not attend.

The Lovely Lena with the switching and sound set up

The Lovely Lena with the switching and sound set up

Being A Participant

I’d also like to thank those people who made their presence at the group as one of ‘participant’ and not just ‘attendee’. Those of you who come and listen with an open heart and engage without resistance not only make these groups more enjoyable to present, but also add to the valuable content in the videos of the event which are a resource for many future people to come.

Unfortunately there were still a lot of people present at these two groups who sat in the audience as ‘attendees’ only. Sitting back in fear and silence means you aren’t engaging your own learning. Equally when you engage in addiction and demand you take energy and focus away from truth and miss the opportunity to learn. This was a large problem in the first two groups, and Jesus will be taking steps to address it, since he found the resistance and addictions in both groups quite oppressive, and he could not present all that he wanted as a result.

Those who open their hearts to the material, own their emotional responses and resistance and engage learning are the ‘participants’ and there is so much pleasure in sharing truth with such people. For those of you who were ‘attendees’ only last time, I encourage you to be brave, challenge your fear or your addiction and become a participant. It will help you progress so much.


There is such a difference between wanting to learn about principles of God’s Truth that can be applied to all aspects of growth and demanding ‘answers’ to individual problems (which is often just the desire for reassurance in response to emotional panic that arises when truth is presented). The former type of engagement enables you to learn truths and tools that can be applied to everything you encounter, it creates independence and maturity in our development and growth. The latter is actually a childlike response, a desire to be comforted away from pain, and to be ‘parented’ by someone other than God.

Jesus and I want to help you ‘grow up’ and become independent in your progression which is why we have made a firm choice to help people with principles and not continually focussing on personal individual issues. In addition, Jesus will be much more firm in the future about not answering questions which have been asked to support your personal addictions unless he feels something can be taught from the interaction.

Of course, at times it is helpful to have an example to illustrate principles in action but giving simple answers to specific issues (without the context of the underlying principles) isn’t the best way to assist anyone to grow their relationship with God.

I’m hopeful that this first group will be of long-term benefit for those who attended and I know that Jesus’ presentations will be a valuable resource for online viewers for many years to come. As always he provides the opportunity for growth but the truths can only have an effect on your lives if you choose to experiment with them.


Post Assistance Group Work

Video Editing & Production

Since returning home Jesus has worked 7 days a week, and Lena and Igor have been working 5 days a week, to finish the edit for the first group so that it was available for viewing on YouTube as soon as possible.

I’m pleased to tell you that they have finished the edit of the first group and on 5th April 2016 it was loaded onto YouTube and the Divine Truth synchronization server. They expect to complete the second group by 24th April 2016.

I’m so proud of these three and the effort that they put in. It’s difficult to describe in a blog post all the time, care and attention to detail that they put in at every step of production to make sure that the end product is valuable, usable and accessible to as many people as possible for many years to come.

Unexpected Expenses

During the group Jesus puts a lot of focus not only recording the material but ensures that we also have reliable back ups if anything goes wrong. We generate a lot of data at each group. Each day what is created is backed up three times via automated scripts that Jesus creates, and two of these backups are stored and kept for the long-term.

Immediately before our first group, it became plain that our Apple Mac hardware will not consistently mount our current USB3 backup storage devices. This meant that Jesus had to quickly create a temporary method for backup while at the group, and for future groups had to buy two thunderbolt backup stores (without drives) which cost $1600.

In addition our first group revealed some issues with the discs we were using for back up. 8TB archive and enterprise drives have only just been released by Seagate. It was our intention to use the same archive drives for editing as we use for backup since they are much cheaper than enterprise drives. The 8TB archive drives cost $400 each when we purchased them and we use 6 per group to store all the data at a cost of around $2400. But when we began editing our processes exposed problems with using these drives for editing in a shared environment. As a result of these two problems, Jesus had to purchase an additional 10 x 8TB enterprise drives which cost $7500 which will be installed in RAID SAN configuration for the purpose of shared editing.

In our original expenses calculations we did not account for the archive drives for each group, for the additional backup storage devices we would need to backup the material during the group, or for the enterprise drives needed to edit the material for all groups. In addition, Jesus, Lena and Igor also needed a well deserved rest before packing up and returning home to begin the additional exhausting process of editing 5-7 days per week and this decision added expenses in accommodation.

These extra expenses resulted in Jesus spending all of the donated funds we received personally during the groups on these extra expenses, and so we have not covered our general operating costs or living expenses for that period. These additional expenses have now been included in the calculations for each group, a summary of which can be downloaded from our website. The basic result of these changes is that the expenses of each 8 day group are now around $330 per participant rather than the $200 originally calculated (assuming 70 people attend), which is still very reasonable.

Please remember that this is just an indicative cost only. All of our events are free and we shall continue to hold them as long as we can cover our expenses. We have already paid for these expenses since we have taken funds from a personal gift we received from a generous family. We are just informing you of the changes of expenses for the groups and the reasons for those changes.


Preparations for the Next Assistance Groups

Jesus has been so incredibly busy and it will be great for him to have time and space to focus on his own progress before the next group. However before then there is still a lot to do in terms of preparation.

After finalising edits for the second session of group one, and loading everything on YouTube, which will be completed over the next two weeks, Jesus will start preparation of outlines for the “Developing My Loving Self” groups.

Very little material has already been prepared for these groups, and each outline takes him around 2-4 hours to complete. There are 32 outlines in total to prepare for each group. So this will take him anywhere from 65 to 130 hours to prepare. He doesn’t actually need these outlines for himself. He can present each subject thoroughly without an outline. But he creates these documents to make it easier for each of you to prepare for the group, and to have a summary of the information he intends to present while at the group.

Jesus is constantly assessing and reassessing where participants are ‘at’ and how to simply present the most important principles that will be of most benefit to people at this stage in their growth. My man is incredibly thoughtful and caring like that.

I’ll be helping out where I can (more about my personal progress below). I absolutely am passionate about the material for these groups. I want to be involved because I love to talk and hear about the concepts and truths essential to gaining an education in love. But I’ve come to feel that all the words in the world don’t have meaning unless we are willing to bravely and humbly experiment with them for ourselves. That is why we made the gift of will the focus for our first group. The choice to change, experiment and receive truth into the soul (true learning) is entirely an act of will and no one else can do it for us.

So, I’ll be working on my own change and experiments and I encourage you all to do the same. There is still a window before the next group to ‘get your teeth into’ some experiments relating to the material about developing our will to love. I know that what is presented in the second will be all the more meaningful to you if you choose to do that.

If you would like to attend the second group “Developing My Loving Self” there are now 12 spaces available in the first session and two spaces left in the second. Full information about the programme and how to register to attend can be found on the Assistance Group page of our website.

"Developing My Will to Love" Group 2

“Developing My Will to Love” Group 2


My Personal Progression

The past two months I’ve focused almost completely on my personal progression. Jesus shared a little about this in the Introduction talk of the “Using My Will to Love” group. Aside from what he shared there isn’t much more I would like to add.

There might be a time in the future when I share more openly about what I am working through but then again I might not (smile).

It is personal and important and I’m treasuring this time that feels very special.

There are experiences in the growth of every soul that are milestones. When a person really ‘gets’ that free will is a gift, or receives a truth from God, or has the courage to feel the full truth of something that happened in their past, these things are special and unique. It is similar to when a child takes their first steps. Most people can walk and anyone can describe walking but when that child takes its first step, there is no describing how wonderful the synergy of desire, experimentation and lived experience of those first steps feel for that child. It doesn’t matter how ‘normal’ walking might be for others, for that child and its parent those moments are momentous.

That is how I feel about my growth at the moment. Sometimes sharing the things I’m feeling and working through feels like cheapening them, or reducing something powerful and beautiful to mere words or descriptions that cannot possibly convey how important and special they feel for me with God.

I’m also feeling more natural with being myself and knowing that part of loving myself is making wise choices about with who and how much I choose to share myself. I wrote about this back in our July update last year and I’ve recently worked through some emotions which makes me feel more relaxed about this stuff.

This is what I said about that back in July 15:

“Jesus once talked to me about some of the states we can live in when it comes to expression of self.

One is that we ‘give ourselves away’. When we give ourselves away, we relinquish our personal desires and aspirations in favour of what other people want, we alter our personality to suit our environment and we are compliant to the whims and wishes of others.

Another state is that we ‘be ourselves’. In this state we are real and open about who we are, what we want and what we feel. We don’t force ourselves, or our beliefs upon others but we don’t hide these things either. Being ourselves means giving up our façade and simply expressing our nature through our actions and in our interactions. To be ourselves at all times, with everyone, is loving.

A third state is ‘sharing ourselves’. When we share ourselves we go beyond just ‘being ourself’. Sharing ourselves means desiring and allowing ourselves to be known, sharing what we deeply feel and desire. We can share ourselves in loving, though different ways, through soulmate relationships and friendships.

We are always going to end up in pain if we choose to share, or try to share, ourselves with people who don’t want to know us and who do not love or desire to love us. In other words attempting to share ourselves with someone who can’t be trusted to love us is not taking good care of ourselves. Equally attempting to share ourselves with someone who clearly doesn’t want to know us is only going to lead to disappointment and this kind of desire is usually led by addiction. However, choosing to share ourselves with people who do love us and care about our welfare is very rewarding and encourages growth.

While being ourselves all the time is loving, to be selective and discerning about who we choose to share ourselves with is also a sign of love and development.”

At this stage I’m not likely to be presenting at our second group since I want to continue doing what I need to do for my progress.


Thank you

Thank you very much to those of you who have donated to us personally these past two months. We have a number of expenses that keep the delivery of Divine Truth running that don’t change while we are away. Among other things, your contributions help us to keep our overseas servers running, in the maintenance of equipment and bills relating to the studio.

In addition, staying away from home to run the groups creates another set of expenses and we thank those of you who have donated at each of the groups.

As always, we are incredibly grateful for those of you who choose to support the sharing of Divine Truth. Your gifts make so many things we do possible and we know you aren’t obligated to give anything, so we really appreciate that you do.

We wish you a wonderful April and May, hoping that you enjoy the material from the assistance groups. To those who will be attending the “Developing My Loving Self” assistance group we shall see you in May or June.

With love,

Mary & Jesus

Jesus & Mary – January Update

It is great to finally make the time to sit down and write on update for November, December and January here on the blog.

I really enjoy writing to you all in this way. It gives me the opportunity to reflect on everything that we’ve been doing and what I’ve been learning. This is always fills me with a sense of gratitude for my life, for all of what God has created, the opportunities given me, for my remarkable, kind, gentle, funny and generous man, and for others in my life as well.

I write all these details for those of you who are interested in how we use your donations and what we get up to, and as I do I inevitably end up feeling thanks towards everyone who supports us in this work. Whether that support comes via donations, or through your own increased desire for truth, or through the time and physical gifts you give to individual projects that help other people hear about Divine Truth through new mediums (like short clips or written transcripts) it all helps with our desire to have God’s Truth known again on earth.

I feel extremely privileged to live a life that I love and believe in and each of you who give to us make that possible.

Jesus and I would like to say a special thank you to those of you who have supported our efforts through your donations and work over many years now. Many people listen to Divine Truth for a while and then leave. But those who have stayed supporting us are the ones who have helped us set and accomplish many goals to create, discuss, and distribute God’s Truth earth-wide.

We have also heard from or received donations from some new people over the previous months. We would like to welcome those new people, and encourage them to place seeking for, and living in Truth as the highest priority in their life.

We send a big thank you to each of you for your support.


Studio, New Videos

We’ve become settled in our new studio and have created lots of new videos. Jesus and I are really enjoying how easy this is to do now. These past few months we’ve been very busy preparing for our first set of Assistance Groups so we’ve focussed on recording sessions that don’t require much preparation, that is, personal feedback, mediumship and Padgett message discussions.

It has been great to hear from many of you about how much you have enjoyed these recordings. We have the desire to continue creating more in depth FAQ sessions, including a series on ‘Incarnation & Reincarnation’ and a new ‘Secrets of the Universe’ overview in short videos but this will require mastering a bit more new technology and the time to prepare these. So in depth sessions are still future plans as yet.

On Wednesday we filmed our last session before we started the pack up of equipment needed for the ‘Developing My Will to Love’ Assistance Groups beginning next month. So our newly ‘settled’ studio is in upheaval. It will be quite a challenging year in this regard. We still hope to record sessions in the studio in between Assistance Groups however there is quite a bit of equipment that needs to be packed up and taken to each group and then unpacked and set up again once we return home. This all takes time and care.

Lena and Igor will also be working very hard when initially return from each group to produce edited videos of the group presentations for YouTube. This is so that people who were not present have time to view all the material from the previous group before attending the following one (this is a pre-requisite for attendance at every group).

So our studio will be a hub of activity over the next couple of years!

In our last recording in the studio we channelled a number of messages from spirit friends for those who will be attending the groups or listening to the material online. I found the care that these spirits had for each of you and their desire to serve you a really special experience. These recordings will soon be available on our website and YouTube channel.


Assistance Group Update

Planning & Preparations

Preparation for the 2016 groups has taken up a lot of our time recently. This is especially so for Jesus who has overseen ALL of the technical, logistical and content planning. He has also planned, ordered and implemented a lot of upgrades to overall equipment set up and made sure we are equipped with back up technology should anything fail during a group. Having backup technology means that no time or effort to prepare for and attend the group is wasted.

Recently, Lena, Igor, Cornelius, Eloisa and Peter helped us with a big clean up and clear out of old technology (much of which can now be passed on to others), and with organising and storing our current set up properly. Thanks so much you guys!

2016 Groups Confirmation

I am pleased to announce that we have received enough donations to cover the expenses for both sessions of the first three groups.

This means that groups “Developing My Will To Love” group 1 and 2, “Developing My Loving Self” group 1 and 2, and “Understanding God’s Laws Of Love” group 1 and 2 are all able to go ahead.

We are still receiving donations if you wish to contribute before you attend any of the 2016 groups. Please don’t donate towards any 2017 or 2018 groups until July 2016, since that simplifies our accounting for the 2017 and 2018 groups.

Bookings & Cancellations

There are still a limited number of places available in the each of the first three groups.

If you haven’t yet registered and wish to attend the first group please be advised that there are only 8 places in total left. At the time of writing this post there are 2 places available in ‘Developing My Will to Love 1’ and 6 places available in ‘Developing My Will to Love 2’. So if you wish to attend the first group you need to get in quick.

I’ve had a few requests regarding swapping groups, or cancelling places at certain groups.

It is absolutely OK if you need to cancel your place or if you wish to swap groups. For these Assistance Group events our registrations are being handled directly via Eventbrite pages.

So, if you wish to cancel your place you need to log on to Eventbrite using the email address that you used to register your tickets. Once logged in you will see a list of your current tickets. When you click on each one it will give you the option to cancel them individually.

If you wish to swap groups you simply need to cancel your place in the group you no longer wish to attend and register a new ticket in the new group (providing there are spaces still available).


Jesus and I have now completed preliminary outlines for every talk we will give in the first group. You can access those outlines via the Downloads section on our website in the 2016 Events page.

I highly recommend reading these outlines before you attend. In my experience the more I grow my awareness of a concept or issue the more I begin to open up to it emotionally. So, if you have the time before coming to the group (and you have finished all of your other pre requisite viewing) it would help to read and feel about the content in these outlines.

You may also wish to print a copy of the outlines to bring with you to assist you with note taking.

The programme that Jesus and I have created for the entire group series is very carefully thought out to assist willing people who engage the entire group programme to go through a process of awakening to their own condition, to God’s Truth, and to God’s Love.

This is a special programme that we will never repeat, so if you are sitting on the fence, trying to decide to come or not, know that we don’t plan to run a similar programme again.

Learning Centre Plans

I am pleased to share that a group of enthusiastic individuals have decided to re establish God’s Way of Love company. Jesus and I will be members of this new company but not directors. This new group is planning a number of exciting initiatives with the goals as outlined in the God’s Way of Love constitution.

Amongst our other projects Jesus has spent many, many hours over the past month on this project. He has been assisting with and writing important new drafts of the constitution and generally sharing his experience of company set ups and of all of the loving considerations involved.

The group of people involved have been eager to learn and we’ll keep you updated as this exciting new project unfolds!


Personal Progression

Reflecting over the past few months in terms of my personal progression I am tempted to say that these months have been the best for me in terms of progress and happiness since I first encountered Jesus again in 2008.

That’s a big statement especially since I also feel that these past few months I’ve at times felt completely upside down, crazy and quite sad and angry at times, but the more I reflect the more I feel it is true. Feeling all of those things has created the progress. And increased happiness, I’m extremely glad to report, is the direct result of progress.

For a lot of years I have laboured under the false belief that progress and my living humbly, would, in the end, only lead to further pain. I espoused or even ‘preached’ quite the opposite sentiment to other people. I really felt that humility and seeking truth and love would result in happiness for others but I held firmly to the feeling that the same rules did not apply for me.

Without going into the emotionally injured ‘how’s and ‘why’s I used to justify this position internally (they aren’t really important anyway), I’m sharing this aspect of my own change because I feel that almost all persons who listen to our teachings also carry the feeling that their own case is ‘special’. While they say that all of this love, truth and humility ‘stuff’ is excellent in theory, when it comes down to actually doing it, they lack the faith that actually putting it all into practice will actually lead to an improved and more fulfilling life.

If you have that feeling, there is no way to really overcome that belief without actually experiencing some of the fears and sadness that underpin that idea within you, and begin to experiment with doing things God’s Way all the time. Then the rewards do come.

Most of you, just like me, will need to feel just how UN-fulfilling and UN-happy life becomes when you choose to stagnate, justifying the lack of truth and faith in your life before you will be motivated to put God’s Love first.

God’s Laws apply to everyone all of the time, and living in harmony with those laws does lead to greater happiness –even though fear tells us the opposite thing before we actually try it. Living in harmony with God’s Laws and engaging them willingly and actively with the desire to grow and know God’s Way is the thing that opens us up to His Love.

I’ve taken the opportunity that God has placed in front of me in the form of this new Assistance Group series very seriously. I want to be the best example of a person attempting to work through my own issues with humility that I can be. I also want to be someone who can speak to you from direct experience and share what I have learned in implementing everything that we will teach you about. That is my desire.

Jesus and I send you our love.

We look forward to seeing some new faces and many we already know at our first set of groups in February.

‘Til next time,


New Videos

I’m due to post an update here on the blog! But today is not that day.

The truth is that we have both been so busy lately there hasn’t time for blog posts or even for many emails.

So, I’m just going to briefly highlight a couple of new videos on youtube that I think you might enjoy.

The first is an old talk given by Jesus back in 2007. I don’t know why but it one of my all time favourite discussions on the Law of Attraction. I recommend it if you are wanting to grasp the basics about that law.

Here it is:

The second is a new video made by Nicky (the Divine Truth Hub founder) and his mate Perry. I love how open and sincere these guys are in their introduction video.  I’m excited about the future content I know that they are planning to bring you via their channel.

Aside from these videos, there is loads of new material now appearing on our regular youtube channel as well. We hope that you are finding all of those videos of benefit.

Until next time,



The “We’ve Been So Busy We Hardly Have Time For An Update” Update

Hello everyone!

Thanks to all of you who have made donations to us over the past three months. We appreciate your support and we are using the funds to get busy on our new projects and to live while we maintain the website and YouTube channels.

We haven’t updated you each month because we have been so busy getting new things organised, including recording, developing the new Assistance Group programme and setting up structures for Learning Centres.

So we will update you now about each thing.


During August the finishing touches were made on the studio. It is so wonderful to have completion on this project.

It took a solid year, a lot of time, careful planning, and attention to detail to build. Jesus oversaw every aspect and decision in the process. I had my input but as I was in a lot of resistance over this period most of the weight of this project rested on his shoulders. He did an amazing job – I am so grateful and proud of him – and the end result is a studio that we really love.

In September we returned to making regular videos to share and we are both happy to be back creating what we really love.

Some of those new videos will go live on our YouTube channels this week and some of the audio recordings are already available via our website.

You may notice over the coming years that, along with sharing general principles and lessons of Divine Truth, we will also be attempting to assist people to have insight into their spiritual condition by providing direct personal feedback to individuals. Helping an individual to see exactly how the principles we teach apply to their personal situation is of huge benefit to them and to others. It is a way to assist people to understanding the practical application of Divine Truth principles and to work through the specific issues that cause stagnation in their relationship with God.

So, we will also now be regularly recording personal feedback sessions for individuals in response to their letters, emails, forum posts, or via in person interviews.

As I mentioned many people find these sessions beneficial and we see these as a valuable new part of our regular output.

We will continue to record regular FAQ sessions, interviews, book group and Padgett message discussions.

I also hope at some stage to film a brief ‘studio tour’ video so that you can see just how wonderful our new digs are.



Jesus has been working on new upgrades to our website.

You may have noticed a few new sections including;

Future Events – lists our planned and proposed future events for the coming years. You can find up to date information about the Assistance Group series here.

How To? – describes how to access services and gifts, attend events, arrange interviews, and download information from our website, Divine Truth Server, and YouTube accounts.

Questions – A new way of collating all FAQ questions, along with questions answered in the Divine Truth Clips YouTube Channel, and by letters and email.

Jesus has also created a brand new ‘Introduction’ section that includes summaries of basic truths about God, God’s Laws, and Discovery of Divine Truth, among others. This section will expand over time so that we have a succinct summary of the basic Divine Truth teachings displayed in one place on the website. I believe that this section has huge potential for new comers to Divine Truth and also for those people who have heard a lot of Divine Truth but may want to summarize some of the basic Truths of the Universe when sharing with others.

Along with these new sections you will soon see a new display format for all downloads, which give more complete information pertaining to each event.

He has reorganized the audio files in the mediumship section. There are some great old ones in there, this one and this one for example.

He has also redesigned the site so that those accessing it from their hard disk drive have the same interface as if they were viewing the page on line. This means that the entire website appears exactly the same if using it on or offline and is fully functional if a person is using the site offline from their hard disk drive only, and the links all connect to files stored on the drive.

Anyone who has taken the time to have a good browse of the Divine Truth website will know that there is a huge amount of information in various formats contained there. Most people have not seen or read most of it. This is partly because at times it has been difficult to organize in a way that makes everything easy to find, and partly because there is just so much of it, it would take anyone a good number of years to read or view it all.

As time goes on, we fully intend to keep producing more and more information, so the website is in increasing need of a back end database and search engine. This would make searches on particular topics possible and easier to find specific resources. Jesus is still working on the best way to do this and still retain hard disk drive offsite copies of the website.

As you likely know, there is already so much material that Jesus has created and we are only just getting started. So, we are constantly looking at ways to make old and new material organized and accessible, while also helping new comers to find the basic ‘What is it all about?’ principles readily and easily.


Learning Centres

As I mentioned back in our June update there are a number of people who have expressed a renewed interest in setting up a local fully functioning Learning Centre. Over the past few months Jesus and I have continued to meet with these people and discuss plans.

We both would like to avoid the issues of the past where projects were halted and resources wasted or abandoned due to a change in desire, or lack of personal humility to work though the issues that arose, in the people in charge of those centres or projects.

Because of this Jesus and I will likely have more of a direct involvement in the operation of any new centres.

We cannot give more detail at this stage because there are a lot of things in the pipeline that have not yet been finalised. We’ll keep you posted.


Assistance Groups

Hopefully by now you have heard about our new “Education in Love” Assistance Group series.

Due to donations received thus far, we can confirm that the initial outlay for the following groups has been covered and will now go ahead:

Developing My Will to Love 19-28 Feb, 2016

Developing My Will to Love 04-13 Mar, 2016

The venue for the groups is called Ivory Palms Resort. You can find detailed information about accommodation options and booking procedure in the Group 1 – Accommodation Bookings document.

Spaces in each of the Assistance Groups in this series are filling up, so if you wish to participate in one of the groups I encourage you to register via the Eventbrite pages. Individual Eventbrite links are all found on the Future Events page of the website.

Remember that we will only confirm that each group is going ahead once we have enough donations to cover the initial outlays involved in running that group at Ivory Palms.

So, make sure you don’t book accommodation at the venue for a group that we have not yet advised will definitely be going ahead. If you have registered for any of the groups via Eventbrite you will receive a personal confirmation email to advise you when it is safe to book accommodation for that group.

At present only the first two groups, Developing My Will To Love 1 & 2, are confirmed.

As I mentioned in our introductory post, Jesus and I are passionate about the purpose of these groups and we are really enjoying preparing the outlines for each of them. It is taking us a fair bit of time but we really want to make these groups comprehensive and effective for people wishing to grow in their relationship with God and others.

I hope we have the opportunity to see you there!

Personal Progression

Jesus and I continue to focus a lot of time on our personal progress towards God and on our soul mate relationship.

The past few months I have had periods of feeling totally renewed and inspired. It is an excellent feeling that I attribute to a growing soul based restoration of my faith in God’s Way. The path ahead seems hopeful and full of awesome possibilities.

And now, even when some new resistance is exposed within me, I still feel far more positive about dealing with my issues. I don’t resort to self punishment and succumb to spirit attack in the way that I used to. This is not to say that I don’t feel extremely challenged or frightened at times about what emotion or emotions I discover within myself!

Jesus has encouraged me to write down some of the emotions I am currently dealing with as there are many women in the world with similar issues.

For such a long time I used writing as a way to connect to what I was feeling. And while I think I will always love to write, and that my writing is a way for me to reflect deeply, there have definitely been times when I shared my written feelings or ‘realisations’ addictively rather than just experiencing them.

Over the past year, working through issues of façade and addiction, I found myself almost at a loss for words to write. I became quite paralysed by the thought of expressing myself without façade, straight from the heart, from my genuine experience and in my real voice.

So, I’m looking forward to the challenge of doing some writing that is more about teaching. I have shared a few things recently on the Divine Truth Forum which has been fun. It’s lovely to see some good discussions starting to go on over there.

Jesus is still working on issues relating to worth and love of self. He has had some break throughs recently which is great.

It is a joy for me as we begin to be more aligned on issues from a soul perspective. Creating the Assistance Group material together is so much fun.

As I’ve been working more diligently on releasing my façade and have begun to feel my hurt, I have naturally started to connect to some of my real nature again. In some ways it has taken me by surprise as I’ve found that certain parts of myself, that for a long time I judged and suppressed, are actually qualities that I like and want to develop more within myself.

I have begun to appreciate just how much, when we are both free of injury, Jesus and I will share the exact same passions and desires, and I feel how our personality really is the same.

I believe that this is how we truly ‘find’ our soulmate and know for certain who they are.

By allowing and embracing our true nature (which takes some sincere work on releasing sin and injury) it becomes impossible not to recognise the one other person in all of God’s Universe who shares our personality and has identical passions.

Our personal soul mate relationship is still very much a work in progress. I am aware that the hurt emotions I have with men and my unreleased fears of attack and ridicule still interfere with me fully opening my heart.

I do now however feel renewed passion and motivation to work through these injuries. I feel very excited about what new adventures and feelings of togetherness must lie ahead for both of us once I let these issues go.

I have such love, admiration, compassion and respect for Jesus. With the singular, unselfish desire to assisting others and to ease their suffering, he accomplishes and teaches so much. But perhaps even more special to me is that aside from that massive effort he puts in, he is someone who, under extreme pressure and attack, has never made an excuse for selfishness or badness. Instead he has engaged his will to become a truly kind and lovely person. That is a rare accomplishment. Most people, no matter what their God created personality is, end up succumbing to extreme negative pressure and choose to deny their ability to engage a will to love no matter what the circumstances.

I am very aware of how poorly people on earth understand Jesus’ true character and motivations at this time. And I do understand why that is. Until I myself developed some humility and began to feel what were the true motivations driving my actions and interactions (which were often quite opposite to what I, in my façade, was telling myself and the world around me they were) I was really clueless as to what motivated other people. As I have become more open emotionally to myself I find I am far more sensitive to what motivates other people. And it is only when I choose to avoid feeling my fears, anger or grief that I find I lack awareness of others once again.

Also, it has only been since I began to feel my own injuries and sincerely desire to release those sins because I could feel that holding on to them was harming others and myself, that I have come to have feelings of love, and therefore begin to understand what love ‘in action’ really looks and feels like.

Because most people are stuck in intellectual dominance and view everything that Jesus (and I) do and say through a purely intellectual analysis, it is very difficult for them to feel what motivates one action or another that we take and it is impossible for them to understand from a soul perspective what loving behaviour actually is.

I view a large part of my spiritual progression as me developing a soul based awareness of, and desire for, love and being loving. It is certainly something that I know still requires a lot of development (smile). In fact, I know that this awareness will continue to develop until at-onement with God and beyond that point.  But starting to gain some soul feelings about love again is just a great feeling.

I really hope that the Assistance Groups that we are developing, along with our recording of more personal feedback sessions, will help others to begin their own process of emotional awakening so that many of you can start to feel love and to know what love does.

That’s all from us for now.

Thank you again for your donations and the enthusiasm many of you have expressed towards our new projects.

Mary & Jesus


Assistance Groups FAQ

Reminder: The main source of the most up to date information regarding the Education in Love Assistance Groups can be found on the Future Assistance Group page of our website.

This post answers some of the questions we have been receiving.

I will regularly update and maintain this post to include answers to frequently asked questions about the “Education in Love” group series. If you have a question about the groups and your attendance please check to see if your question has already been answered here before emailing us.

Most recent update: 8th Nov, 15

Registration & Donations

Q: I would like to register for all 8 groups but the Eventbrite links only worked for the first four.

Links for two sessions of all 8 groups are created now. You can register for whichever groups you plan to attend.

Q: I am would like to register for one (or more) of the assistance groups, however it will be a few weeks until I will be able to make a donation. Is it OK to register on EventBrite now? Or is it best to wait a few weeks and register when I can donate?

There is no problem at all to register now on Eventbrite for any groups that you definitely plan to attend.

If you do make a donation later, if possible please label the donation AssGrp.

Also, as per the original instructions, please send an email with all the required data once you have made a donation. That that will help me to track the funds.

Q: Would it be best we wait until this first group is completed before registering and donating in to any further groups?

There is no problem with registering for as many groups as you like now.

Donations towards groups 1,2, & 3 are now being accepted. These donations are essential to cover our expenses and to confirm these groups will be held on the Sunshine Coast.

Please refrain from donating towards Groups 4-8 until the start of the new financial year (July 1st, 2016). This will assist us with our accounting. Otherwise we have to pay a large amount of tax on the donations received in one financial year that won’t be used until the next year.

This excludes donations towards overseas Assistance Groups. We will need to receive any donations towards such groups 6 months BEFORE the group is scheduled to occur.This is so that we have enough time to plan such groups.

A few people have registered and donated towards all 8 groups already. There is no problem with donations already received from these people.

Q: I would like to register for the possible North American event, but could not find the link on the Notes Along the Way post. Please let me know if there is an option to register for it.

We haven’t yet opened registrations for the potential events in North America or Europe as we can’t start proper planning for these groups until we receive enough donations.

All of the venues we have approached overseas require payment of funds and guarantees from us well before such events occur. They also are only interested in serving us if we can guarantee the event will occur. We cannot plan events that we do not have the funds to pay for. We will let everyone know if, and when, we get close to receiving enough donations to hold an overseas group. Registrations for those groups will open at that time.

Our very tight schedule allows us to only run groups at an overseas venue in October of each year, as long as we have enough time to organise the event, and receive enough donations to cover our expenses for the event. These groups would be in addition to the events we hold in Australia. If the conditions for overseas events are not met, we will use the shortfall donations for the proposed overseas events towards booking venues in Australia.

Something for people in Europe or other locations (apart from the USA) to consider is that given your very favourable exchange rate when coming to Australia and that expenses for food and accommodation tend to be less expensive than in the USA, you may find that even though a flight to the USA may cost slightly less than one to Australia, your expenses during the group may be much less if you attended in Australia.


Q: I’d like to attend for the weekend/ for the two day programme.

All participants are required to attend the full 6 day programme. If you don’t wish to attend the full programme please do not register.

All groups in this series run for 6 days, over an 8 day period (2 rest days). The material is sequential in presentation, where each day requires knowledge of the previous days material. It is not possible for us to give places to people who are not present for the entire period for many loving reasons.

Please do not take the very unloving action of booking a place with the intention to only come for a few days of the event. This takes valuable time and limited spaces from people who have a sincere desire to attend and engage the group for the full programme.

Q: I live on the Sunshine coast. Am I required to stay at the venue or can I visit the venue each day?

You don’t need to stay at the venue if you have other accommodation options. This includes if you live nearby.

Q: I’ve been previously asked to not attend Divine Truth events. Can I attend these groups?

Those who have been previously asked to not attend our groups due to their unloving behaviour towards ourselves or others, are invited to attend these groups.

However we will continue to have the policy that people who are unloving in our events to ourselves or others will be removed after receiving a warning about their unloving behaviour.

This policy applies to everyone in attendance at the groups regardless of the distance a person may have traveled to attend the event.

Q: Is there any way I could be removed or asked not to attend the sessions in the group?

People who are unloving in our events to ourselves or others will be removed after receiving a warning about their unloving behaviour.

This policy applies to everyone in attendance at the groups regardless of the distance a person may have traveled to attend the event.

We do this because we believe if you are truly serious about becoming a loving person, you will make a supreme effort to remain loving at the event that is attempting to teach you about love. It is particularly unloving if you attempt to argue with, be angry with, or condescending towards the presenters who are giving you their time for free to help you.

Those who have been previously asked to not attend our groups due to their unloving behaviour towards ourselves or others, are invited to attend these groups under the same policy provisions as everyone else.

Q. How can I know I am ‘ready’ to attend an Assistance Group?

You are welcome at these groups if you have a sincere desire to grow in love and desire a relationship with God.

Really in order to be “ready” all that is required is humility to face where you are ‘at’ the given moment and a desire to work though the blocks to progression.

This includes a willingness to take responsibility for your life and your own emotions. Jesus and I are not responsible for people’s individual progress and we cannot force you into feeling and ensure that you will grow simply by coming to a group. These things are dependent on your individual exercise of will and we won’t accept people attempting to make us responsible for their feelings or motivation to change.

What we do want to provide is an opportunity for sincere people to learn about what is involved for them to develop their relationship with God and offer many truths and tools in order to assist peole who want to try the experiment for themselves.

Q: I remember Jesus saying it’s a bit better to go with partner or family (either?) as the dynamics of relationships can be exposed more, etc or something like that. Is that right?

No, the choice to attend with or without a partner or family member is completely a personal decision. There can be benefits and advantages in either direction depending on your own personal situation, your intentions, and desires for the group.

We have opened registrations for two sessions of each group and if we receive enough registrations and donations for both we will run each group twice.

If this happens people will have the flexibility to attend one of two sessions for each group and thus have flexibility to attend as they desire with or without a specific family member.

Q: I would really love to attend as many of these workshops as I am able, and I currently live in overseas. Are there any locations in Australia where a learning center is yet set up,where perhaps I could contribute to helping at the center and have a place to live & grow towards God over the upcoming workshops?

While we would love to offer this as an option, it is not yet possible.

We have many plans and desires for Learning Centres in Australia and overseas. However the creation of such centres depends upon the desires of others matching our own. We always want to work with the sincere desires in others and never force what we see as great possibilities onto others.

We are currently working with some individuals who are interested in creating Learning Centres and we are hopeful that this may happen over the coming years. But nothing yet is certain.


Q: Has a venue been decided on yet in Noosaville?

Yes, it is called Ivory Palms resort.

Q: Would you please tell me the costs involved in the venue if you know yet?

These are outlined in the Booking Instructions document.

Q. I would like to arrange to share accommodation at Ivory Palms. Is there a way that I can get in contact with others who wish to do the same?

Yes, Rui from overseas has very kindly created a web platform to facilitate such arrangements. Please be sure to read his terms of use before you proceed with this service.

The web address for this service is:


Q: I hope these presentations will be on Youtube as I live overseas and won’t be able to attend in person?

We are certainly going to do everything we can to have these groups videoed for Youtube. However due to some technical and team constraints the speed with which they appear on our channel is not yet guaranteed.

At the very least, we will endeavour to have timely audio recordings for each one appear on our website.

It will be a prerequisite for all participants to have listened to prior groups in the series before attending the latter ones.

Announcing “An Education in Love” Group Series

Our Desire to Help You Love

There is one thing that governs the Universe that we live in, the workings of our soul, spirit body and physical body. It is the basis of all Law that God has created.

The absence or presence of this one thing within our soul either limits or expands or our ability to learn and understand ALL subjects; to change; to heal; and to become compassionate and creative humans.

This one thing forms the basis of any real relationship and yet it is the very thing that – really – we know almost nothing about.

That ‘one thing’ is Love.

We receive no formal education in what love is or how truly to love ourselves or others. And the environment which we live and grow up in is just as un-educated about love as the adults we have become.

If we were to quantify and analyse the products of our lives we would see that the majority of us have pursued and even succeeded in a wealth of activities.

Yet when we measure the intentions behind our activities and the harvest they yield it is clear that we have spent very little time seeking to understand love.

Our lack of attention towards love makes no sense since the very key to our eternal happiness, creativity and growth lies in our ability to recognise love, to give love and to receive it. When we know love, give love and welcome it into our lives then all of our other pursuits are enriched in terms of pleasure, success and quality.

Because we’re pretty clueless about love, most of us have no idea what a loving relationship with God entails. Instead we project our demands and expectations of what we think love ‘should be’ onto God and when God doesn’t respond in the way that we want Her to, we feel that God doesn’t care about us, or we decide that He doesn’t exist at all. We end up further and further away from the One Being – God – who can teach us infinitely and rapidly about love.

Unless we begin to develop a humble attitude towards learning about ourselves and to change our understanding of love then we will never connect to God.

We all badly need an education in love.

Jesus and I know this and we want to change it!

We have been busy working on a project that I am so excited to share with you all. We have created a new series of Assistance Groups entitled “An Education in Love”.

If you felt completely overwhelmed by the scope of everything that we offered in a single week at the 2014 groups, I think that you will find the format for the new series really beneficial.

This series of 8 individual groups is designed to give participants the chance to study in more detail the basic issues that block their understanding of, and desire to love. They provide practical teaching about how to work through these issues and begin to receive Love from God.

The basic idea of these groups is to take the topics we introduced in the 2014 Assistance Group, and spend an entire 6 days focusing on deepening your understanding and education in love on these subjects.

I believe that the biggest service that Jesus and I can offer at this time is to not only assist people to grow their soul based understanding of what is required in order to establish a true and lasting relationship with God, but also to assist people to understand their soul condition as it is right now.

Understanding one’s own soul condition enables a person to quickly and practically work upon their impediments to growth. I can’t overstate how important and valuable receiving direct, loving personal feedback has been for my growth in love.

While all 8 of these unique groups in this series will be recorded for listening or viewing after the fact, attending a group in person will give you the unique opportunity to receive direct feedback that will assist you in your relationship with God. So my feeling is, if you can manage to attend at least one group in person it will be a milestone in your progress towards God.

Introducing the Series

The series of Assistance Groups is called “An Education in Love”. It will run over two years.

Each group will focus on a particular theme and is designed to assist participants to obtain a soul based understanding of the basic principles of developing their soul in love.

You could think of this series like ‘Learning Love 101’. Or perhaps we could have called it ‘Love for Dummies’. (smile)

Each group will give participants the opportunity to:

– Attend presentations of new material relating to the theme of the group

– Complete reflection activities and ask questions relating to presentations

– Receive personal feedback to better understand their current soul condition

The material in each group will build upon the material that was presented in the 2014 Assistance Groups. Each subsequent group in this series will also build upon material presented in the earlier groups in the same series, and so, each prior group is intended to be fully engaged before your attendance to the next group.

Pre requisites for participants will be to have watched or attended at least one of the 2014 Assistance Groups, along with all of the groups in the ‘Education in Love’ series prior to the one they are attending.

Those who have been previously asked to not attend our groups due to their unloving behaviour towards ourselves or others, are invited to attend these groups but we will continue to have the policy that people who are unloving in our events to ourselves or others will be removed after receiving a warning about their unloving behaviour.

Logistical Issues

In order to be able to offer these groups we need to be able to cover our expenses involved in running them. For any groups held here in Queensland, Australia the costs are reasonable.

The details for how much funds we need to cover our running costs at the venue we have selected can be found in an Assistance Group Expenses document that Jesus has created for you.

With the exception of the first group, which we have already borrowed funds for and booked, we cannot proceed with formal venue booking until we receive enough donations to cover the basic expenses and outlays involved in any of the other groups.

If we find that we don’t have enough funds to run a group we will cancel that group and cover the material in our home studio.

Overview of the Group Series

19-28 Feb, 2016
04-13 Mar, 2016
Developing My Will to Love
20-29 May, 2016
03-12 Jun, 2016
Developing My Loving Self
04-13 Nov, 2016
*18-27 Nov, 2016
Understanding God’s Laws of Love
Registration 1
Registration 2
17-26 Feb, 2017
*03-12 Mar, 2017
Understanding Sin & Its Causes
Registration 1
Registration 2
19-28 May, 2017
*02-11 Jun, 2017
Removing the Causes of Sin
Registration 1
Registration 2
10-19 Nov, 2017
*24 Nov-03 Dec, 2017
Engaging God’s Laws of Love
Registration 1
Registration 2
16-25 Feb, 2018
*02-11 Mar, 2018
Receiving God’s Love
Registration 1
Registration 2
18-27 May, 2018
*01-10 Jun, 2018
Loving God
Registration 1
Registration 2

*The additional dates listed for each group are potential second groups that we may hold after the first if we receive enough registrations and donations to support a second group.

Formal programme for each group will begin on a Friday evening and finish on the last Saturday afternoon. Sunday morning will be for farewell, check out and travel home.

What To Do Now

1. Register

Register for the event you wish to attend using EventBrite by clicking on the above Registration link for each group. You must register in order for us to count you as attending.

If you have registered, but are now not attending, please IMMEDIATELY cancel your registration so that another person can take your place. If you do not do this, we will not allow you to a future registered event. It is very unloving to take the place of someone else and then not attend.

2. Donate

Donate using any method you wish from our “Donate” page on the website.

If possible please label your donation AssGrp. This assists us to sort out donations.

After you have donated using any method listed on the donate page of the website, make sure you send an email to with the following details:

  • Amount of the donation in your currency
  • Date/time you made the donation
  • The method you used for donation e.g. Paypal, Transferwise, Direct Bank transfer etc.
  • The date and name of the Assistance Group you wish to donate towards e.g. Removing the Causes of Sin 17-26 Feb, 2017

For the first group, Jesus and I have already paid for our expenses from funds we have borrowed. However, to continue offering subsequent groups, we need to be able to raise around $8,200 to repay the loan, and do so before venue hiring date cutoff periods offered by the venue. Our first hiring cutoff date is 15th November 2015. So, we need to know before this date how many people are attending the first group, and the potential 2nd group on the same subject.

For these reasons please consider how much you wish to donate towards us repaying our loan or towards our expenses generally for these groups. Our costs for each group in Australia average out to a contribution of less than $200 per person in attendance. For overseas groups, our costs are much higher (see the section below about overseas groups).

3. Wait

Once you have registered, and we have received enough bookings and donations to proceed with the group, this allows us to complete a firm booking with the venue. Once we have a firm booking with the venue, we will confirm your place in the group, and give you details about how to book your accommodation with the venue if you wish to do so.

4. Book

Once we have confirmed the venue, and your own place in the group has been confirmed, then you can safely proceed with your booking of accommodation and travel.

If you book with the venue where we are holding the event, you will loose a maximum of $100 if you cancel any time up to 7 days before the event. If you book elsewhere, you will need to make your own arrangements.


Venue & Accommodation

We have found a great venue for the groups in Noosaville, Queensland.

Food and accommodation arrangements and costs for each group will be the responsibility of each participant. It is not necessary to stay at the venue where the group is being held (although participants may find this most convenient). There are many accommodation options in the area that suit a range of budget constraints.

The Queensland venue does offer accommodation in various configurations including studio apartments with limited kitchen, two and three bedroom apartments and villas with full kitchen. All apartments have a single car park. We have stayed there previously and found it to be clean and comfortable. There are three pools, and other facilities.

Participants will receive a discount rate of 15% if they quote ‘Divine Truth’ when making a booking with the Queensland venue. Participants will be required to pay a $100.00 deposit. If for some reason participants do need to cancel the venue will not charge a fee if the cancellation period is outside 14 days prior to arrival. If it is within 14 days the cancellation fee would be the $100.00 deposit or no charge if participants reschedule the dates of stay. These are very generous terms.

Once the first group is confirmed with the venue on 15th November 2015 we will release the name and booking details for this venue so that participants can make accommodation arrangements. You can then also go ahead with any travel arrangements.

A Possible Overseas Assistance Group

Jesus and I would really love to be able to offer the gift of one of these groups in an overseas location. In recent months, while planning these groups, we have done extensive investigation into various overseas venues.

In the Assistance Group Expenses document you will see that we have itemized the costs involved running the event, including for the travel and accommodation for us and two support people (who handle filming for the groups) to the various locations in North America and Europe.

Aside from Australia, you can see from the comparisons in the Assistance Group Expenses document that the cheapest overseas venue that everyone can get to reasonably (usually via a single international flight + some ground travel) is in the USA. However this cost is still four times the amount needed to run the same event in Australia.

Considering the exchange rate and cost requirements for us to get to another country, it is much more economical for us to hold events in Australia.

It may also be more economical for people who live in Europe to attend the Australian venue for the same reasons. Costs of travel, food, and accommodation are much cheaper in Australia than other western countries.

However we want to offer the opportunity for one overseas event to happen if enough people desire for that to occur. So, we have decided to hold an Assistance Group in North America and/or Europe if we receive the amount of donations required to cover the costs of such events (these are outlined in the cost comparison document). But we must receive these donations BEFORE April 2016 because we need at least 6 months organisation time for these events.

If these conditions for an overseas event are not met, we will still hold the third Assistance Group here in Australia with the same arrangements as outlined above for the other groups in the series, and we will use the donations for the proposed overseas events towards bookings in Australia.

Please note that we have not yet opened registrations for an overseas event via eventbrite as we cannot commence planning until we receive enough funds to cover our expenses.

Deconstructing Self Punishment

I’ve written in the past about my own issues with self punishment and many people still ask me about it.

Since then I’ve done a lot to work on this issue. The first thing that really helped me was to begin to view self punishment as an addiction; a device to help me avoid my fears. I began to treat my self attack as something that had no future, could never be ‘felt enough’ in order to be released and decided that I just needed to halt it in its tracks whenever it began to happen.

To a small extent this helped but as with any major addiction until I was willing to deconstruct the false beliefs driving my justification for holding on to it, and to soften to the feelings I was using it to cover, I didn’t have much success. And the success I have had in letting go of self punishment up until this point is still limited to a large degree by the fears that I continue to justify and resist.

However I recently compiled some notes about the work I have done and insights that I have had about this topic thus far and thought that in sharing them here that they may be of assistance to others.

Self punishment is an interesting thing to deconstruct. I found that I really wanted to internally defend it as a ‘good’ and righteous thing. I’ve even gone so far as to delude myself that I was being humble, or ‘more humble than before’, when I was self punishing.

I often rationalised that when I was self punishing, that is, attacking myself, that I was being far more loving than I would be if I was attacking others. This is absolutely not true.

From God’s perspective attack of anyone is a sin. This includes when we direct the attack internally towards ourselves.

In addition, while I might have wanted to tell myself that self punishment effects only me, I have come to see that attack of self can at times be quite a manipulative technique. And just because I had stopped attacking others with my rage, it didn’t mean that my self punishment was lacking in passive aggression.

I’ve come to feel that my resistance to letting go of self punishment is in reality only ever a resistance to truth in one of two areas.

  1. How I Have Harmed Others

The first thing that drives my self punishment is a resistance to feeing how I have truthfully harmed others.

My emotional projection is that if I just punish myself enough about what I have done then hopefully the person I hurt will feel bad and try to make me feel better, or at least be happy that I am doing the punishing and they don’t have to say a thing.

This is actually a really manipulative tactic and makes the harm I have done to the other person all about me. I am avoiding of engaging with how the other person feels about what I have done and dealing with the causes as to why I took the unloving action.

A person in façade will often resist acknowledging the manipulative nature of self punishment. So growing a desire to let go of façade was an important step for me in giving up the addiction to self punishment.

  1. How I Have Truthfully Been Harmed By Others in the Past

The second is a resistance to feeling how I have been harmed by others.

I choose self punishment because I prefer that pain to the pain of feeling the truth of how little I have been loved in a certain situation. Essentially I fear experiencing the grief involved in facing the full truth of the situation. It is a way of blocking out the truth and shutting down my feelings.

I can also be avoiding an additional fear which is that I am afraid of how the person or spirit involved will respond to me if I feel and acknowledge the truth of how they are harming me. I often fear further abuse from them if I connect to how wrong what they are doing is and make a stand (even internally) for truth. Hiding in self punishment helps me avoid that fear.

As an adult, it is very important for me to remember that all of these situations in which I am being harmed are all attractions to help me to connect with causal grief. So the fears associated with facing and feeling the truth about personal hurt and harm are related to situations and unprocessed emotions from childhood.

I hope that this post might help some of you who are still finding that you are resistive to giving up self attack and punishment.

Responding to Spirit Attack: A Letter

Hi Jesus and Mary, I am wondering if you would be willing to have a conversation with me by phone or skype. Everything is really ramping up for me, I don’t know if I am on track, if I am being relentlessly attacked by spirits. I have focused on my relationship with God and feeling my endless addictions (I think anyway). I feel it would help me a lot.
Love E____ .

Hi E____,

I’m sorry to hear that you have been struggling with spirit attack lately.

Honestly, at the moment I am struggling with spirit attack myself. I know that it can be really hard, confusing and scary. Here are some things that I’ve noticed:

As I have gotten more connected with myself I have found that many of the things I thought I believed or felt in the past about myself or the world have actually been me agreeing with negative spirit messages to me. I have repeated their messages to me and to others in an attempt to avoid spirit attack.

As I work through things I have found that I actually have different feelings and beliefs and desires to what I was telling myself. I was just trying to be a different person with a different life in order to try and make spirits who I fear happy.

When I get or stay more connected to my true desires and feelings the spirit attack ramps up as they try to maintain or regain control of me.

So, I am not surprised that as you have started to follow your desires in harmony with love and truth (including going back to uni and doing more things that you love) that you have felt more under attack.

The key is to recognise that the problem is not what you are doing – you are actually doing better in your progress – but that these spirits are pulling out all the stops to try and get control back because they sense that soon they won’t have any at all.

Once you recognise this dynamic the real emotional work of freeing yourself from the influence and attack forever can begin.

This is where I still run into problems but Jesus so often helps me with encouragement and truth about these issues and I’ll do my best to share some of the key things he reminds me of below:

1. Allow yourself to feel the attack and how that makes you feel.

Rather than believing the messages the spirits are telling you let your self soften to feeling how terrible it feels that spirits would say and want to do such things to you. Let yourself feel how afraid you are of these spirits and what your beliefs are about what they can and will do to you.

Very often I find that I go rigid under attack, I try to ‘survive’ it rather than grieve it. This often means I shut down my emotions completely and start telling myself what they want me to believe. This includes things like “I’m a terrible person” or “Everything is hopeless” or “Feeling emotions doesn’t work anyway – look at how unhappy you are”. Once they have me in that place I will often then be more likely to do their bidding. I get attacking or really negative with others. I put myself down internally to myself or with others. This is me accepting their messages and often I’ve done this so much that I have ended up thinking that these messages came from me not outside me. This is dangerous because it allows the spirits to be ‘anonymous’ and invisible to us. I don’t sense the attack and instead I become their instruments to attack myself or others.

The key thing here is to know that the only reason I do all of that is in order to avoid how terrified I am of the spirits. Because I don’t want to feel fear I believe I have no other choice but to do and believe what dark spirits want me to. And if I have done that long enough and am avoiding fear enough I will end up wanting to not have any sense of the spirits at all.

So I very important step is to begin to recognise that attack and threats are coming from outside of yourself towards you. It sounds like you have begun to do this which is great.

All the negativity and self attack or attack towards others that I end up engaging are all ways that I avoid feeling my terror of spirits. I submit my will to what they want rather than maintaining my love of truth and acting in accordance with it. I believe that you have done this a lot in the past but now that you have grown in love you are less willing to do as much attack of others so of course you feel the attack from spirits more strongly. You need to be aware however of how much you are still willing to attack yourself. This is a way that they sap your energy and you still give up your desires out of fear of them.

From things you have told me in the past, you came from quite an emotionally violent family and so some of the fears that these spirits are triggering are to do with how violently you were treated when you desired to engage your will for yourself as a child. That is, there is terror in you of your parents and how they responded to you as a small child when you had desires and emotions that they didn’t approve of. These spirits are manipulating this unfelt emotion within you. When you release it they will have zero power over you. So let this process expose those fears.

2. Let yourself feel your specific fears.

Under attack from spirits let yourself feel what you really fear will happen. You need to let yourself be specific.

No fear is just general. For example the feeling is not just “I am really afraid of spirits” or “I am really afraid of the dark”

Our fears are specific and individual to us. While we might have many fears of many different things, each one is definite and often intricate in detail.

For example:
‘these spirits will be able to kill me unless I do what they want’, or
‘these spirits will be able to influence people to hate me’ or
‘people will laugh at me when I’m like this and unless everyone loves me I am worthless’ or
‘these spirits can kill my loved ones’ or ‘in the dark people will come and rape me and no-one will see and rescue me’

So let yourself feel and discover what you are really afraid will happen when these spirits are attacking and threatening you.

Below is an excerpt from an online chat I had with someone else which illustrates the process of getting more specific about fear:

Mary: So here is the thing about spirit influence. I know it is hard and I still struggle with it myself but this is what I have found to be true: spirits can only influence through our own negative feelings towards ourselves and through our fear/terror.

Friend: Oh, that makes sense.

Mary: For me, my resistance to feeling intense shame about certain events (abuse in first century) leads me to agree when spirits tell me I am worthless and also my resistance to experiencing my terror of being physically abused and tortured opens me up to believing or doing what they tell me. For example, I might take actions towards myself or others that are unloving in order to try to mitigate their projections or avoid the fear their threats to cause physical harm to me if I don’t comply.

The problem is (as you are experiencing) that by doing what these negative spirit people want or repeating their terrible messages towards us, we end up feeling worse and worse.

Friend: Do you have things you do that help?

Mary: I have found the key for me is to find their particular hooks into me (those emotions I talked about). It isn’t always easy but it really, really helps to get specific about what I am ashamed about or what I am afraid about.

Once I can connect to those emotions even a bit I find I am ‘on my own’ again … that is… they can’t influence me into those terrible negative compounding cycles that lead me to feelings of wanting to die etc

Friend: OK .I will start trying that…I have been working to go back too to the past where the terror started too.

Mary: Great, so for example to start with – when you say that seeing mum in the paper terrifies you… can you get more specific about what you are afraid of?

Friend: I am afraid they can commit me and destroy any chance of a good life for me because they have all the money, power and influence to do that and would if they could.

I feel like I have given up any chance of love and happiness already…and it’s not enough for them. And like they are winning…and I can’t do anything about it.

Mary: So – lets get even more specific. When you mention the fear of them committing you, does this relate to a fear of being physically overpowered and your freedom being taken away?

Or is it that they can convince others that you are wrong and therefore alienate you from acceptance in the world?

Friend: definitely the second one…

I’ll never understand how they can all be so happy when they know the truth…

Mary: OK – awesome.. so you know that one of your big fears is about them influencing other people’s opinion of you and being able to convince others that you are bad and worthless.

And if you think about it this is the exact fear that came up for you in your recent attraction with me and Jesus when you thought L____ would ‘poison’ us against you. This wasn’t the case but the fear was triggered in you and because you didn’t feel it, it clouded your perception and allowed a bunch of very negative spirits to manipulate that unfelt terror and convince you that you were really in danger of something terrible happening.

So you know that this is a big fear to work on that must have roots in your childhood.

Friend: yes…that is so true…and thank you for that…I will start to really examine this…

3. Don’t neglect truth

This is a beautiful thing that Jesus reminds me of and I watch him practice under spirit attack himself.

This means things like:

–  Read or watch things about God, love and truth

– Don’t avoid people who you know are loving and will be truthful with you and who you have found in the past to be trustworthy, seek them out instead

–  Remind yourself of the truth about your true nature, about progression and about God

– Keep speaking what you know to be truth and follow what you know are loving desires

– Remind yourself that you are getting more attacked because you are growing towards God and love and your real self – not because you deserve it or the spirits are right about you. In fact, anyone who attacks you cannot be delivering truth to you.

– Remember your loving motivations for doing what you are doing e.g. why you decided to follow your desires to go back to university, why you wanted to grow and heal etc.

Truth and love are such powerful forces – more powerful than the evil ones – but when we resist fear it is easy to loose sight of that fact.

So, don’t neglect sources of truth and love in your life. Seek out things that you know inspire you and remind you of truth and goodness. Dark spirits are hopeless themselves and they find it easy to manipulate a person who lives in negativity and hopelessness.

While we do need to surrender to and grieve any feelings of faithlessness or hopelessness that exist within us be careful not to live in those feelings. The path to God is to feel those feelings and continue to seek God’s Truth about everything that frightens us and that we feel hopeless about.

Anyway E____, I hope that some of that helps.

I read some motivational quote the other day that said that most people quit right before they begin to see results. While I think that the person was referring to health and fitness I find it fitting in relation to spirit influence, control and attack.

We feel the world’s resistance to our change the most when we are making definite moves towards personal change and growth. Before then we don’t notice it as much because we are in more agreement with it. As we begin to shift the level of opposition to love and truth that was always there around us just begins to be exposed. We just didn’t notice it that much before because we were stagnant on those issues ourselves. So, I hope I can encourage you to keep going and remind you that Jesus and I love you and we know that you can get through this.

Your sister,



I wrote this letter some time ago and revised and slightly updated it for publication here today.

As I was rereading over what I had written I was reflecting ‘gee I really left out a glaringly obvious thing to do when under spirit attack’ – which is to pray.

I could claim that it was too obvious to mention – but the truth is that often, when under spirit attack myself, I find myself feeling that the most difficult thing to do is to simply pray.

But it is actually the most powerful thing you can do.

I see that many of us when under attack – myself included – have a tendency to give up, assume a figurative (or literal) fetal position, hang a ‘position vacant’ sign on ourselves and try to wait for it all to be over so that we can feel better again.

This never works.

The truth is that only way spirit attack lessens is when:

  1. We comply in some way with the unloving demands and projections of the attacking spirits.

    We might stop the loving action we were planning to take, we might treat ourselves or others with a lack of love or even begin to attack ourselves. In short, the attack lessens because we, in a small or large way, give up our will to what these spirits want and thus become their instruments. This is what they want and so they ‘back off’.

  2. The attacking spirit changes and decides through their own free will and desire to grow in love to stop attacking you.

  3. We respond proactively by becoming more humble and faithful.

    This means that we begin working through the emotions that the spirits are acting upon thus lessening the power of their dark messages to manipulate us.

A few important things I want to point out here:

Firstly, that option number 2 rarely happens unless you engage with option number 3 first yourself. There are various reasons for this that probably deserve a longer explanation but put simply; it is unlikely that an abuser will cease abusing another person and decide to become more loving before the person who is being abused decides that they don’t want to accept that abuse anymore.

Second thing I notice is, that people sometimes get confused, believing they are doing number 3 when really they are in reality engaged in option number 1.

That is because darker spirits are often comfortable with people they influence on earth living in certain addictions (and calling it ‘experiencing emotion’) if those addictive emotions reinforce the unloving viewpoints the spirits themselves have and make the person on earth more willing to do what they (the spirits) want.

The person on earth can gain the impression that experiencing a certain emotion is lessening the spirit attack and that must mean that they are working through their injuries. However unless the person on earth is willing and desirous to receive God’s Truth on issues then they can really just be experiencing a lessening of spirit attack because they are becoming more compliant with negative spirits and more in harmony with their darker soul condition.

Perhaps a good example of this is a woman who is working on herself and begins to feel that she would like to open her heart to her man. She begins to feel spirit attacked. Through her unhealed emotions spirits can then start to suggest to her that really her issue is that she has been abused by men and she just needs to ‘feel’ her rage and ‘forgive’ the man she is with for harming her in the past.

If the woman isn’t humble she can start to act out emotionally in blame of her partner, withdraw further from him than she was previously and try to ‘work on’ her rage. She may even cry angry tears and spend time bashing inanimate objects in the guise of working through her rage. Suddenly the spirit attack may lessen.In fact, she might feel lighter and have more energy in all of the other areas of her life – except with her male partner.

If this woman is blocked to receiving God’s Truths about matters she only has her own ideas and the spirit’s attack or lessening of attack to gauge her progress. Even if this woman has been harmed by men in the past, while blocked to true humility and to God’s Truth she will stagnate or even regress in her progress. She will not be able to accurately discern what she needs to forgive others for and what  she needs to repent for.

Which brings me back to the issue of prayer. Involving God in this process of dealing with attack (and life in general!) is way powerful. Immediately that we do this we aren’t reliant on our own injured self or the negative spirits around us to determine what is truth and what constitutes progress. If you really think about it, it is so illogical to exclude the most reliable source of Truth and Love from our quest for growth.

A lessons I have learned this year is that I often shut God out of my life because I want to hold onto false beliefs about myself and others. I do this because either:

  1. I believe that remaining in a state of error and untruth in my soul keeps me safer from violent attack (which is an issue of avoiding terror), or because,
  2. I don’t want to feel the overwhelming emotions that facing God’s Truth would trigger (which is an issue of avoiding immense grief).

When I don’t want to pray I remind myself that it is likely due to one of these two false beliefs and attitudes. I can work on those and I will need to deal with these global issues if I am to remain free of negative spirit influences for good.

I encourage you to find the reasons you stop wanting to pray when under spirit attack and to remind yourself that without seeking God’s Truth in our lives we are flying blind, with our injuries and errors clouding our judgement and assessments of things. Alternately, having a reliable external source of absolute truth is such a gift.

God’s Truth provides us with a compass and His Love gives a light to move towards.


Jesus and I have spoken about spirit influence a lot in the past and I really recommend viewing the following videos if you would like more information:

Positively Responding To Spirit Influence S1P1 S1P2  S2P1 S2P2

Coping With Spirit Influence P1 P2

Spirit Influence S1 S2P1 S2P2

If anyone found any other Divine Truth video or written material helpful in responding to Spirit Attack then I’d love to hear from you via email and I can add your suggestion to this list.

Introducing Divine Truth Hub

Our friend Nicky just launched his own website and Divine Truth forum.

If you would like to check out these sites the links are now listed in the side bar of this blog and will soon appear on our website.

Nicky has taken a great deal of care in planning and creating this new project.

He has laid out the forum in a way that invites meaningful discussion and the topics are awesome. Both Jesus and I agree that if we were ever going to create a forum ourselves these are topics we would include and we would organize it in a very similar way.

We feel that in creating these sites Nicky is offering a beautiful gift to others.

I believe that many people are hungry for a place where they can go and actually know that the principles of Divine Truth will be upheld there.

We know Nicky personally and he is very sincere about his own progression towards God and is serious about running these online spaces in harmony with God’s Laws. Because of this I feel that there is a great deal of positive potential for people to engage and learn via his forum and website.

I also feel hopeful that his initiative might inspire others to create their own personal projects that champion Divine Truth principles and offer gifts to the world.

**Sidenote: I regularly update the sidebar on this blog to include blogs and sites from other people who I feel are genuinely attempting to engage Divine Truth principles in their lives and sharing their experiences from a humble place.